millions is a very sweet movie. very fantastical, and sugar coated with delish irish accents :) the little kid acting as damien is so innocent looking and he thought the money bag came from god :) [note to self: never be a movie reviewer no matter how much desire one has to gain practically unlimited access to the cineplex]
anyhow. i wonder what london will be like. i don't want it to become exactly as if we've transplanted a singapore community of scholars and plopped it into the heart of london, but i don't exactly want to become homesick either :( which, the wimp that i am, i already know i am going to suffer from right about 1 week into the situation. plus. what if i don't get enough hot water to take my lovely super hot showers? what if i constantly feel damp and cold and miserable? what if i forget to bring loads of little stuff that i absolutely cannot live without? what if i get *gasp* mugged on the streets? hmmmm. what if i can't find nice enough clothes to wear and end up looking like i'd picked up stuff from the trash? :(
reading my diary (a very badly written one, not unlike this blog), i've come to the belated realisation that i am a very anxious, easily depressed yet as easily cheered up, worrisome, chicken little kind of person.
Cloudy Boracay
Monday, April 04, 2005
i've hit a new low in my level of physical fitness (if it can even be called that anymore). I visited the gym on saturday, cycled for 10 minutes, puked, did 5 inclined situps and now my abdominal area hurts when i sneeze/cough/sit up. sigh.
anyway. watched les ballets jazz de montreal in the evening, and it didn't leave much of an impression on me, except the part where the rubber chickens were dancing most gorgeously :) i want a rubber chicken. does anyone know where i can get one?
anyway. watched les ballets jazz de montreal in the evening, and it didn't leave much of an impression on me, except the part where the rubber chickens were dancing most gorgeously :) i want a rubber chicken. does anyone know where i can get one?
Friday, April 01, 2005
instead of advancing my career, i'm staying at home becoming domesticated. I now mop, wash and generally do the housework i can't get out of doing; I play with the little 2 year old kid next door with that oh-so-mischievous smile and i am (trying to) make my own dress! heeee. it's quite fun. especially when i hear that little eth. has been asking for me at the door while i was out :) he's really fun! he's got slightly wavy hair, a smile that lights up his face, and seemingly unbreakable bones :) wheeee!
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Reading aman/everybody's blogs is making me mope! i have nothing going on in my life (that's exciting) and i only have myself to blame. grrr. Everything's on hold because of NUMBER 1 and NUMBER 2, incidents i'm not inclined to reveal on a blog. even if it's just a blog that no one reads :)
It's a terrible feeling when I feel like blogging and i realise there's nothing worth blogging cos nothing of note has occurred and it's really tragic when I blog about things like: I woke up, I went out for breakfast, I bought a couple of bones for soup.
ah well. things on hold currently that -have- to be done before i go to the uni:
1. driving. (a big plus being that i'll actually have someone's car to drive when i pass)
2. pilates.
3. salsa (of second priority in pilates because i'm scared of people like p******. sorry crys :P)
4. erm. anything interesting.
well well. so now the whiny person shall go do something else.
It's a terrible feeling when I feel like blogging and i realise there's nothing worth blogging cos nothing of note has occurred and it's really tragic when I blog about things like: I woke up, I went out for breakfast, I bought a couple of bones for soup.
ah well. things on hold currently that -have- to be done before i go to the uni:
1. driving. (a big plus being that i'll actually have someone's car to drive when i pass)
2. pilates.
3. salsa (of second priority in pilates because i'm scared of people like p******. sorry crys :P)
4. erm. anything interesting.
well well. so now the whiny person shall go do something else.
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Friday, February 04, 2005
have got the picture of the ranch in melbourne on my desktop. just the plain field, and the gathering of clouds above it, and the subtle glowing of the setting sun. it's gorgeous, not done justice by the 12 inch screen because in reality the lovely sky extends for miles around. on the top of the hill, all you can see is grass and trees, grazing horses in the distance, and the couple of dots that were our cabins. And of course, being on the top of a hill, it meant that we could sort of ignore the little mounds of horse dung dotting the area, and try deluding ourselves that the faint trace of fragrance was really just something in the air. What i love about melbourne spring/summer was that the air was so crisp and clean and wake-up-ey. very nice. except for the fact that the mild cold jolted me awake everyday early in the morning. and i would start shivering uncontrollably in the washroom cos my body hadn't warmed up yet and it was cold. I do not see how i will survive in a winter anywhere. tho of course, i figure it'd be nice to see snow at least once in my life.
sigh. it's the job. i'm getting more talkative. actually, i'm only on a higher level of 'talkative' immediately after work. cannot imagine working from 2.30-10.30 tmr :( i hate getting home at 11 plus just cos of sthg like work. bleargh. and it's freaky how the words 'RE NER GIE MOR PHO LIFT' keep appearing in my head for no reason. (anyway. am spacing it out to prevent possibility of people running a search for it and getting my site. i hope so.) very strange anyway. and i find myself very tempted to introduce new products to people all the tim. v v strange. as in by people i mean non-customer people.
btw. the whole smoking issue right, don't see why people enjoy smoking so much. because i (suddenly) now know 2 smokers, and they both look incredibly unhealthy (red rimmed eyes, watery, ill-looking, skin-and-bones kinda look) and they just smell of smoke a lot. sigh. just based on that alone i'm nv going to go into smoking.
i'm in reading mode again :) so i've got murakami (sadly enough, a lot of his books are oddly similar: guy in middle age, guy obsessed with girl from youngish days, out of reach/impossible, loads of classical music references; somehow, japanese translated books have a very matter-of-fact style that's very readable. dunno lah. not like i read a lot of jap translated anyway), and ondaatje (no i haven't read english patient. no i haven't watched the movie. yes i am very out of date.)
but it's very irritating. it's like they had JE library 4th floor cordoned off (sort of) for teen readers right? (very obvious in the very trying-to-be-hip signage over the entrance that proclaims 'vergingallteens' or sthg like that) and so when it was first opened it was very cool. beanbags strewn around, veryfunky design (concrete floors plus band space) stuff like that. tho of course the books that are there tend to look as if teens are very stupid and read like kids. heh. anyway. when i recently went there, there actually were a lot of people there and it was pretty disgusting. the place smelt of stale sweat. there were all these sec school kids hanging around (yeah. just hanging. nthg to do with the books. more like to do with homework and gossip) and i was like whatever. all these people are just like sitting around talking. very loudly. in the very crass way. not the yes-it's-good-conversation kinda way. and the thing that really got to me was that there were people sitting in every nook and cranny and i wanted to get a book from one of the shelves and there were 2 students parked in front of them doing homework and basically that meant that to look at any book i had to strain and reach over them and try to get the books. grrr. and they weren't a bit embarrassed taht they were being obstacle-y and irritating. and not at all bothered by the fact that noyou'renotsupposedtobedoingworkonthefloorandbotheringlibraryusers. GRRR. so irritating. i think it was the stale sweat fragrance that got me on. they need better ventilation.
and so after another bout of verbal diarrhoea i shall stop and lose all coherence in my next few weeks and decline to blog any further.
(yes, mascara is 40 bucks, lip glosses are 29. please please if anyone sees this blog before 4 tmr, please come down in bugis and lunch/break with me. i am very lonely.call me)
sigh. it's the job. i'm getting more talkative. actually, i'm only on a higher level of 'talkative' immediately after work. cannot imagine working from 2.30-10.30 tmr :( i hate getting home at 11 plus just cos of sthg like work. bleargh. and it's freaky how the words 'RE NER GIE MOR PHO LIFT' keep appearing in my head for no reason. (anyway. am spacing it out to prevent possibility of people running a search for it and getting my site. i hope so.) very strange anyway. and i find myself very tempted to introduce new products to people all the tim. v v strange. as in by people i mean non-customer people.
btw. the whole smoking issue right, don't see why people enjoy smoking so much. because i (suddenly) now know 2 smokers, and they both look incredibly unhealthy (red rimmed eyes, watery, ill-looking, skin-and-bones kinda look) and they just smell of smoke a lot. sigh. just based on that alone i'm nv going to go into smoking.
i'm in reading mode again :) so i've got murakami (sadly enough, a lot of his books are oddly similar: guy in middle age, guy obsessed with girl from youngish days, out of reach/impossible, loads of classical music references; somehow, japanese translated books have a very matter-of-fact style that's very readable. dunno lah. not like i read a lot of jap translated anyway), and ondaatje (no i haven't read english patient. no i haven't watched the movie. yes i am very out of date.)
but it's very irritating. it's like they had JE library 4th floor cordoned off (sort of) for teen readers right? (very obvious in the very trying-to-be-hip signage over the entrance that proclaims 'vergingallteens' or sthg like that) and so when it was first opened it was very cool. beanbags strewn around, veryfunky design (concrete floors plus band space) stuff like that. tho of course the books that are there tend to look as if teens are very stupid and read like kids. heh. anyway. when i recently went there, there actually were a lot of people there and it was pretty disgusting. the place smelt of stale sweat. there were all these sec school kids hanging around (yeah. just hanging. nthg to do with the books. more like to do with homework and gossip) and i was like whatever. all these people are just like sitting around talking. very loudly. in the very crass way. not the yes-it's-good-conversation kinda way. and the thing that really got to me was that there were people sitting in every nook and cranny and i wanted to get a book from one of the shelves and there were 2 students parked in front of them doing homework and basically that meant that to look at any book i had to strain and reach over them and try to get the books. grrr. and they weren't a bit embarrassed taht they were being obstacle-y and irritating. and not at all bothered by the fact that noyou'renotsupposedtobedoingworkonthefloorandbotheringlibraryusers. GRRR. so irritating. i think it was the stale sweat fragrance that got me on. they need better ventilation.
and so after another bout of verbal diarrhoea i shall stop and lose all coherence in my next few weeks and decline to blog any further.
(yes, mascara is 40 bucks, lip glosses are 29. please please if anyone sees this blog before 4 tmr, please come down in bugis and lunch/break with me. i am very lonely.call me)
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
well. even though my job is a VERY different experience from anything i'll ever expect to do, i keep having this sneaky feeling that i could be spending my time doing more... useful stuff. it's just this salesgirl thing getting to me. I AM NEVER BECOMING A FULL TIME SALESGIRL. it's too stressfully inane and painful. grrr. (esp when i hear of people's way-more-meaningful jobs.) sigh.
anyway. heads up you lot who actually wanna buy expensive stuff from where i work... prices are hiking next month!
sigh. SIGH. well. at least i know that i'm not the only one who finds this girl at work irritating :D that's always sthg happy to find out.
argh. there's nothing interesting happening now!!!! esxcept. who wants to go salsa/pilates/whatever... please please please contact me! but we have to go find someone to teach obviously. i need something to make me feel better :/ my days are so lifeless. especially the part where i wake up, make up and go to work. i don't really like to make up cos i don't look any better in make up and that's really really sad. well. except the part where i got my eyebrows shaped for six bucks and they look decent and i quite like them until i think about how sad it is that we don't think natural eyebrows are any good looking unless they are natural eyebrows that look plucked.
anyway. i'm going to popping into hc regularly i think. so people who're still there and want to meet up call me! :D cos the books at the library are the good ones and they aren't very popular and easier to find than the public library ones. hee.
love yall :)
( and i was going to do the same thing as lam and sign off: Love, shan)
anyway. heads up you lot who actually wanna buy expensive stuff from where i work... prices are hiking next month!
sigh. SIGH. well. at least i know that i'm not the only one who finds this girl at work irritating :D that's always sthg happy to find out.
argh. there's nothing interesting happening now!!!! esxcept. who wants to go salsa/pilates/whatever... please please please contact me! but we have to go find someone to teach obviously. i need something to make me feel better :/ my days are so lifeless. especially the part where i wake up, make up and go to work. i don't really like to make up cos i don't look any better in make up and that's really really sad. well. except the part where i got my eyebrows shaped for six bucks and they look decent and i quite like them until i think about how sad it is that we don't think natural eyebrows are any good looking unless they are natural eyebrows that look plucked.
anyway. i'm going to popping into hc regularly i think. so people who're still there and want to meet up call me! :D cos the books at the library are the good ones and they aren't very popular and easier to find than the public library ones. hee.
love yall :)
( and i was going to do the same thing as lam and sign off: Love, shan)
Thursday, January 06, 2005
First Day at Work
My feet hurt like hell. My ego is beyond bruised. I sold a thousand bucks (around there) of stuff but I get 1.5% in commission (only). I am very tired. I cannot remember the price of a lot of products. I don't know where the stocks are put. I'm not sure what's what and I have perfected the art of telling the customer--- Please wait for a while. I'll go check. --- and then bug my senior.
What a first day at work. but of course, the part where yingling came to visit me and waited for me to go for a break was the best part :) yay. i love yingling. oh yeah. if any of you want to come visit my next gig is at tangs next friday :) look for the girl with average makeup. oh and a v bad part of the job was where i had to keep checking my makeup and realising i was shining all over (bad) and my dark circles were showing. a lot. heh. v demoralising. but at least i get to touch up at the counter :) i still feel sneaky doing that tho.
sigh. call me before you visit la. otherwise i might be on break or sthg. oh wait. i leave my phone in the store. so you know, i might not pick up unless i just -happen- to be in the store room getting those expensive products.
My feet hurt like hell. My ego is beyond bruised. I sold a thousand bucks (around there) of stuff but I get 1.5% in commission (only). I am very tired. I cannot remember the price of a lot of products. I don't know where the stocks are put. I'm not sure what's what and I have perfected the art of telling the customer--- Please wait for a while. I'll go check. --- and then bug my senior.
What a first day at work. but of course, the part where yingling came to visit me and waited for me to go for a break was the best part :) yay. i love yingling. oh yeah. if any of you want to come visit my next gig is at tangs next friday :) look for the girl with average makeup. oh and a v bad part of the job was where i had to keep checking my makeup and realising i was shining all over (bad) and my dark circles were showing. a lot. heh. v demoralising. but at least i get to touch up at the counter :) i still feel sneaky doing that tho.
sigh. call me before you visit la. otherwise i might be on break or sthg. oh wait. i leave my phone in the store. so you know, i might not pick up unless i just -happen- to be in the store room getting those expensive products.
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
blah. it's really stupid when people search for 'mastrubation techniques'. like hello. 1. can't type properly. 2. very pathetic and announcing it. ah well. tt comes from friendster btw. don't understand why they have stuff like that up but.. it's them :)
I don't want to start work :/ it is going to be freaky and with all the hundreds/thousands of products that they carry i so am going to be stumped when customers ask me. and is there ever a tactful way to ask if you want to get anti-aging products? and bah. the girls are all so skinny and pretty. and as usual they were all like WAH when i said i was from hwa chong and rg. i mean hello? they asked me what. then must answer properly :( and the stupid thing is i don't get staff discount cos i'm temping and i don't get freebies. damn.
aargh. i'm really behind schedule. i NEED to finish my apps today. and then i find more interesting stuff to do. bah.
I don't want to start work :/ it is going to be freaky and with all the hundreds/thousands of products that they carry i so am going to be stumped when customers ask me. and is there ever a tactful way to ask if you want to get anti-aging products? and bah. the girls are all so skinny and pretty. and as usual they were all like WAH when i said i was from hwa chong and rg. i mean hello? they asked me what. then must answer properly :( and the stupid thing is i don't get staff discount cos i'm temping and i don't get freebies. damn.
aargh. i'm really behind schedule. i NEED to finish my apps today. and then i find more interesting stuff to do. bah.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
hehe. second time at tiramisu.. second batch of great tasting mistakes :P i never fail to forget to consult the recipe at most critical moments :) but at least i don't think -anyone- can go wrong with tiramisu. (esp since they're freaking expensive to make :/ )
oh. in case anyone wants to know... got a job at l****** (don't wanna publish it. otherwise my potential customers may read this blog and run away in fright / i'll get immediately fired by them cos i sort of bluffed my way thru the interview) and hopefully they don't fire me on the first day they see me after the interview. because of bad makeup. so now i'm your friendly cosmetic counter girl! (official designation: beauty advisor. quite impressive huh!:) ) anyway. i'll be on shifts.. so no telling where/when i'm working. call me if you wanna come visit :) and. no laughing at bad makeup. i need to learn how to bluff my way through this! :D anyway. l****** is quite easy to guess. because there aren't that many brands with 7 letters and start with an L.
aaaah! uni apps must be done within the next week. thank goodness i'm on the ball and i don't start work till next month. k. better go start on them. luuuurve :) and merry christmas!
oh. in case anyone wants to know... got a job at l****** (don't wanna publish it. otherwise my potential customers may read this blog and run away in fright / i'll get immediately fired by them cos i sort of bluffed my way thru the interview) and hopefully they don't fire me on the first day they see me after the interview. because of bad makeup. so now i'm your friendly cosmetic counter girl! (official designation: beauty advisor. quite impressive huh!:) ) anyway. i'll be on shifts.. so no telling where/when i'm working. call me if you wanna come visit :) and. no laughing at bad makeup. i need to learn how to bluff my way through this! :D anyway. l****** is quite easy to guess. because there aren't that many brands with 7 letters and start with an L.
aaaah! uni apps must be done within the next week. thank goodness i'm on the ball and i don't start work till next month. k. better go start on them. luuuurve :) and merry christmas!
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Friday, December 10, 2004
ahhh. last ever dinner tog of the year i think... but it was 3 freaking hours. which sucked. and i had to dance on stage. which was worse. and then i forgot my steps :P which was double worse! heh.
anyway. i'm sad i didn't take enough photos. but that's the after-prom me talking, cos during prom i was just too lazy to take each photo twice/thrice depending on how many people there are in the photo. so people, send me my photos!! :) oh. i would give my email here. but my gmail account is pretty and as yet has like max 5 spam a day. which isn't really spam. unlike my shitty hotmail acct which gets flooded in 2 days. so heh :) leave me a msg or sthg :)
hmmmm. anyawy. i've got photos up! :) i think. am in the midst of uploading. but imagestation is pretty quick so happy me :)
ok. i think it's this page. try it. if it doesn't come out then too bad :(
anyway. i'm sad i didn't take enough photos. but that's the after-prom me talking, cos during prom i was just too lazy to take each photo twice/thrice depending on how many people there are in the photo. so people, send me my photos!! :) oh. i would give my email here. but my gmail account is pretty and as yet has like max 5 spam a day. which isn't really spam. unlike my shitty hotmail acct which gets flooded in 2 days. so heh :) leave me a msg or sthg :)
hmmmm. anyawy. i've got photos up! :) i think. am in the midst of uploading. but imagestation is pretty quick so happy me :)
ok. i think it's this page. try it. if it doesn't come out then too bad :(
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Chem at the dinner table
ah well. lunch table perhaps.. but in any case...
1. Chlorophyll is an indicator. (got on this topic cos the broccoli looked unbelievably green) So, it's yellow in acidic medium and really green in alkaline. that's why the veggie we get with wanton mee (i never understand what's so wanton abt noodles. defamatory!) is so green all the time... cos the noodles are made with alkali water or sthg like that.
2. the fishy smell seafood exudes is due to a volatile amine group. that's why we get tea with lime to clean our hands with... cos of the citric and tannic acid! there's neutralisation and then the product is ionic, and heh. it gets less volatile! :) that's all.
quite fun :D very academic :) and ah well. food chem periodically surfaces to my mind during lunch and dinner as well! the whole works with maillard reaction/nonenzymic browning and all that :)
1. Chlorophyll is an indicator. (got on this topic cos the broccoli looked unbelievably green) So, it's yellow in acidic medium and really green in alkaline. that's why the veggie we get with wanton mee (i never understand what's so wanton abt noodles. defamatory!) is so green all the time... cos the noodles are made with alkali water or sthg like that.
2. the fishy smell seafood exudes is due to a volatile amine group. that's why we get tea with lime to clean our hands with... cos of the citric and tannic acid! there's neutralisation and then the product is ionic, and heh. it gets less volatile! :) that's all.
quite fun :D very academic :) and ah well. food chem periodically surfaces to my mind during lunch and dinner as well! the whole works with maillard reaction/nonenzymic browning and all that :)
Monday, September 13, 2004
hollow feeling in my stomach :( i have too many expectations to live up to and the shitty thing is, they're probably all mine. sighhh. mind over matter. mind over matter. mind over matter. haha i'm concentrating on thinking happy thoughts! and, well obviously, they all have to do with life after As. heh. :D
i want to go overseas! like incredible yearning to go somewhere else :)
i want to shop! why is it that they always have nice clothes only when i have no time/money to shop? :/ like gss was quite shit.
i want to dance! i miss it so much :/
i want to play, i want to have time to myself, i want to get rid of the guilty feeling when i don't look at notes.
grrrrr. buckle down and study. very funny. they always say stuff like: you just have to concentrate now and get over it then can enjoy liao. but... i can't :(:(:('
(damn. why is it all 'i want'?)
i want to go overseas! like incredible yearning to go somewhere else :)
i want to shop! why is it that they always have nice clothes only when i have no time/money to shop? :/ like gss was quite shit.
i want to dance! i miss it so much :/
i want to play, i want to have time to myself, i want to get rid of the guilty feeling when i don't look at notes.
grrrrr. buckle down and study. very funny. they always say stuff like: you just have to concentrate now and get over it then can enjoy liao. but... i can't :(:(:('
(damn. why is it all 'i want'?)
Friday, September 10, 2004
warning: typical studying gripes ahead
blaargh. if they meant for us to memorise every single thing in our syllabus, they should have offered upgrades for our memory space :/ i need at least 40 gigs more!! sigh.
this studying thing is terrifying. information seems to slip in and out so very easily :( it's like no barriers to entry or exit. there may be short term supernormal profit, but it all gets eroded by the free entry of other information so in the end it's just like no net gain :( and i seem to remember only the most useless bits of info which i find entertaining! argh. and major point of piss-offness: food chem. like aaargh. it's so in the middle of nowhere. like part common sense, part just memorising and sort of incomplete cos it's not learnt together with the requisite bio info! aaaargh. pisses me off. grrr. dessication, microbial spoilage and sthg else. shit. oh. food poisoning. like hello? really don't know la. just by different names only what... eeee got mould! yucks decomposing rotting food... oww i need the hospital. grrrr. but at least i kinda like the scientific names for the bacteria: Clostridium botulinum it's got a sense of rhythm to it :) (i wonder if you like put a piece of meat or sthg infected with the bacteria on your forehead, and it creates a similar effect to injecting botox? :) and Saccharomyces cerevisiae :) that's baker's yeast. and i can't remember the rest cos only these two sound fun :)
i'm supposed to be studying you know. there's like my econs essays on monday and i can't get myself down to studying. if there were economies of scale, it would make sense that the more i study, the less the personal cost would be to me yeah? aaargh. econs invasion. and the whole crap abt education being a merit good and how it's underproduced? seems to me there's a divergence in social cost and private cost: MSC <<< MPC. overproduced. i'm going nuts. and point is, i don't study very much. i mean yeah i do the 'i shall devote the whole day to studying' thing, but heh. it's hard juggling 4 subjects k. i end up thinking v hard about which subject i should study and heh. don't study any.
verbal diarrhoea. still can't get over fahrenheit: i can't spell it :( i still think it looks better farenheit. sigh. and somehow it's so disproportionate, how i complain so very much, and i don't do much about it; how i keep harping on personal stuff, and people've got way more important stuff to worry about; how some people can be so stupid about stuff. bleargh.
and i'm just writing more and more so i don't have to go study. cos i'm doing complex nos now and i don't know how to do.
like: If |z|=3 and c=5+i, find the greatest and least values of |z+c|. well. the answer is √(26±3) and i can't figure it out :(
sigh. i'll go find better stuff to do. if anyone can find the answer please please please tell me.
this studying thing is terrifying. information seems to slip in and out so very easily :( it's like no barriers to entry or exit. there may be short term supernormal profit, but it all gets eroded by the free entry of other information so in the end it's just like no net gain :( and i seem to remember only the most useless bits of info which i find entertaining! argh. and major point of piss-offness: food chem. like aaargh. it's so in the middle of nowhere. like part common sense, part just memorising and sort of incomplete cos it's not learnt together with the requisite bio info! aaaargh. pisses me off. grrr. dessication, microbial spoilage and sthg else. shit. oh. food poisoning. like hello? really don't know la. just by different names only what... eeee got mould! yucks decomposing rotting food... oww i need the hospital. grrrr. but at least i kinda like the scientific names for the bacteria: Clostridium botulinum it's got a sense of rhythm to it :) (i wonder if you like put a piece of meat or sthg infected with the bacteria on your forehead, and it creates a similar effect to injecting botox? :) and Saccharomyces cerevisiae :) that's baker's yeast. and i can't remember the rest cos only these two sound fun :)
i'm supposed to be studying you know. there's like my econs essays on monday and i can't get myself down to studying. if there were economies of scale, it would make sense that the more i study, the less the personal cost would be to me yeah? aaargh. econs invasion. and the whole crap abt education being a merit good and how it's underproduced? seems to me there's a divergence in social cost and private cost: MSC <<< MPC. overproduced. i'm going nuts. and point is, i don't study very much. i mean yeah i do the 'i shall devote the whole day to studying' thing, but heh. it's hard juggling 4 subjects k. i end up thinking v hard about which subject i should study and heh. don't study any.
verbal diarrhoea. still can't get over fahrenheit: i can't spell it :( i still think it looks better farenheit. sigh. and somehow it's so disproportionate, how i complain so very much, and i don't do much about it; how i keep harping on personal stuff, and people've got way more important stuff to worry about; how some people can be so stupid about stuff. bleargh.
and i'm just writing more and more so i don't have to go study. cos i'm doing complex nos now and i don't know how to do.
like: If |z|=3 and c=5+i, find the greatest and least values of |z+c|. well. the answer is √(26±3) and i can't figure it out :(
sigh. i'll go find better stuff to do. if anyone can find the answer please please please tell me.
Thursday, August 12, 2004
very indignant. grrrr. i want a thousand million pins to stick into her voodoo doll. bleargh. i hate being so unappreciated.
oh lam. this is very freaky. remember the time you climbed into your house through the window? like freak. how many storeys was that? there was this woman who tried to do that like recently (yesterday in fact) and fell to her death.
oh lam. this is very freaky. remember the time you climbed into your house through the window? like freak. how many storeys was that? there was this woman who tried to do that like recently (yesterday in fact) and fell to her death.
Friday, July 16, 2004
sensitivity is a curse really. if an apparatus is highly sensitive, it tends to have a tradeoff with its working range. you see things in minutiae, sure, but the minutiae is all you can see. there is no larger picture, and sometimes it's like those occasional contests they have in magazines where they show a photo in high magnification and you have to guess what the object is, and all there is to go by, is perhaps a tiny distinguishing feature that seems somewhat distorted by how much larger it is than you're used to.
sometimes there's the sinking feeling in your tummy. that means you're either ill or you're about to be violently ill. or sometimes it means you're about to cry, really. so it depends.
look at what's happened before the sinking-feeling incident --- did you eat something raw/nearly decomposed/weird? did you just see something that is out of your comfort zone? or do you just feel depressed because you looked into someone's eyes and for some unfathomable reason, you sensed contempt/disdain/dislike/irritation?
find out the cause, and apply a suitable remedy. sometimes, a hiatus from everything is a good solution. like a trip to thailand for retail therapy. that is highly recommended. unless of course, you have 2 years work to memorise in 8 weeks. in that case, find a large tank. throw said two years work into tank. stock with sufficient food, water and vitamins and jump in. charge for admission. at least if all else fails, that's money in the pocket.
sometimes there's the sinking feeling in your tummy. that means you're either ill or you're about to be violently ill. or sometimes it means you're about to cry, really. so it depends.
look at what's happened before the sinking-feeling incident --- did you eat something raw/nearly decomposed/weird? did you just see something that is out of your comfort zone? or do you just feel depressed because you looked into someone's eyes and for some unfathomable reason, you sensed contempt/disdain/dislike/irritation?
find out the cause, and apply a suitable remedy. sometimes, a hiatus from everything is a good solution. like a trip to thailand for retail therapy. that is highly recommended. unless of course, you have 2 years work to memorise in 8 weeks. in that case, find a large tank. throw said two years work into tank. stock with sufficient food, water and vitamins and jump in. charge for admission. at least if all else fails, that's money in the pocket.
Sunday, July 11, 2004
i'm just down from an adrenaline peak. the bad type that surges into your blood when you have a crisis to deal with. not the tingly anticipatory type at the start of a game.
the lizard leaped into my open bag despite all my prayers otherwise. little lizards are scary because they can get everywhere. anyway. having mustered up the courage to confront Lizard of the Bag, i chucked everything out of my bag in vain. LotB was nowhere to be seen/found/heard.
so despite lingering concerns that LotB is still stuck between my books, i can only trust to its sense of judgement that it had taken its opportunity and fled the black cavern that was my bag while i was cowering in a corner. i hope. please run away.
i remember similar encounters with Mr Stick Insect in the Toilet who died of starvation.
the lizard leaped into my open bag despite all my prayers otherwise. little lizards are scary because they can get everywhere. anyway. having mustered up the courage to confront Lizard of the Bag, i chucked everything out of my bag in vain. LotB was nowhere to be seen/found/heard.
so despite lingering concerns that LotB is still stuck between my books, i can only trust to its sense of judgement that it had taken its opportunity and fled the black cavern that was my bag while i was cowering in a corner. i hope. please run away.
i remember similar encounters with Mr Stick Insect in the Toilet who died of starvation.
Monday, June 28, 2004
gosh i'm pooped. and only partially from having watched meteor garden 2 (oops :) till 2 cos i couldn't sleep. hmm. realised i watched it with my eyes closed and still understood what was going on. strange wot? :P
yay. one good thing about a stupid packed exam schedule: it goes by all the quicker :) please promise me we (anyone. really. i'm desperate :P ) will go out to shop/slack/talk after friday!! only thing keeping me moving.
yay. one good thing about a stupid packed exam schedule: it goes by all the quicker :) please promise me we (anyone. really. i'm desperate :P ) will go out to shop/slack/talk after friday!! only thing keeping me moving.