aaargh!!! i was blogging halfway when i was bloody directed to hotmail!!!!!! sheesh. oh anyway. i think it's really cute! (my fire icon that is :) when anyone tries to talk to me it bounces and bounces on my dock until i click on it :D so it looks a lot like tigger!! :) bloody distracting tho. :):):)

oh yeah. ipod and itunes 4 is out. my stuff is getting outdated! i mean like hello? so freakin fast!!! it's only been a short while :/ hrmph.

had corrective service today... sheesh. was cutting newspapers for 'future cs generations' <--- direct quote from jt the disciplinary mistress :) to wipe the windows with... imagine this: cloistered with a v talkative girl who insists on talking to me even tho i quite refuse to talk, sawing/hacking thru stacks of neverending newspapers, hungry and thirsty. sigh. haha :D after which we had delicious thai food at thai noodle house :) the four of us were going utterly nuts :D laughing and laughing.. was on laughing gas :D i laughed so hard my stomach and my chest hurt... and i nearly spurted out what i was drinking :) which was in fact, what charlene did :) all the water. into the plate :) i think the guy was horrified...

maths today was quite scary. not in anyway to do with mr lui.. but eugene!! idiot loudmouth... can't remember the exact details.. but it ended up with eugene saying damn loudly that i fantasise abt mr lui all the time. or sthg to that effect. anyway. was so horrified when half the lt turned around and stared... eeeks. hopefully they didn't realise what was going on! :D

anyway. feel intellectual today... got a couple of books to comfort myself from missing x2 today :/ so. am currently multitasking between asimov's guide to science and rushdie's midnight's children and kundera's identity :) need to read faster tho... currently. have to plan econs essays and do gp on hinduism. like hello?! sigh.

miss crys. miss lam. miss evry1! sigh. feeling in a miss-y mood today. aaargh. and lam is leaving so soon! and i don't any free time. how sad is that!!!!

oh my... i seem to be v free? ah well. anyway. just figgered out how to use fire!! so now i can use icq and messenger all at once! brilliant.... :D

hehe :D am posting with my powerbook! yay :D (sorry lam :) anyway. just one thing. you know i was thinking abt a mass ogling session for the powerbook? sigh. my mom thinks that you all may bring sars into the house... so no go!! oh yeah. have you ever realised? it's a pleasure reading instruction books... like the powerbook one.. it kept going 'your powerbook can do..... with your powerbook you can...' and it just went on and on like that for ever *grins* ahhhhh :)

tmr it's presidential elections... i think it's most prob mikael lah... he made the most lasting impression... not to mention that his is the name that most pple remember anyway... :) sigh. hc council is just so... i dunno... unsought after? yeah lah... look at rj with tons of pple vying a few positions... and in hc it's more like council trying to find more pple to run :D how tragic! but anyway. it really is a rather thankless job... i mean... there are tons of ungrateful pple who actually hate council more than anything... haha :D

ah well. did my five items today for napfa... haha :D actually on path for a gold! but of course, unless there is some new way of cheating on the 2.4 or sthg... i'm going to die!!! how disgusting. not my fault i hate running.... sigh. am being punished! sigh sigh sigh.

anyway. am bored with nthg to do! and i don't even have new comments/ tags to occupy myself with :/ am sad. hrmph.

wheeee!!!

woohooo!!!!

am quite delirious now! :) got powerbook!!! i mean ok.. we all have to share it.. but still!!! a powerbook!!!! :):):):):)

let me regale you with the details of this glorious day :) firstly. we had a utterly splendidful tim sum brunch at charming garden :D ahhhh :) then we were supposed to be going home when my dad turned into the apple centre at bukit timah.... and after like an agonising hour bought the powerbook!!! i must say... he was super impressed witht the salesperson... :D so fun!!

oh. but the next bit was quite bad... had to go for cheerleading practice in tch... *eeks* been going to school like monday to sunday... then we were just practising when these angmoh guys came over... like smoking and stuff... and nearly stold our handphones! like what lousy pple right? and not just that... there were these sec1 little boys on the bench near us and basically doing their project or sthg... one of the guys in red berms went over and talked to them and was somehow playing/ looking at one of the little boys' phone... and he ran off with it!!! and the little boy didn't scream or anything.. was just in some sort of a daze... then one of the girls saw it and went over to ask him what happened *then* he said that the guy just ran off with the phone... *and* the guys started chasing... by which time the thieves had already climbed the fence and ran into the neighbouring condos... *sigh* what stupid little boys. i would have screamed or sthg... anyhow. maybe the little boy was secretly glad? cos it was a free phone... what jerks the thieves were... preying on defenceless little boys!! deplorable...

and anyway. the powerbook is sadly charging... v v sad... so it's out of bounds... :/ sigh. will find one day when i'm free and you all can come over to ogle it!

haha :) so scary... eating ugly puny probably bony and highly poisonous pufferfish is just so disgusting it's funny :D so sorry bout your fish darling.. but ah well. maybe you could take it as a blessing in disguise? or you can comfort yourself by playing insaniquarium :) can feed fish that constantly get attacked by aliens...

sigh. how? i hate physics. i love physics. i love all the stuff like astrophysis without the math *grins* and nuclear and quantum even tho i don't really understand it.. but i'm so going to fail my blocktest-masquerading-as-a-normal-test that i had today :/ so undesirable. eeeks. bugger. does anyone know how to upload to the ipod without erasing previously saved stuff? i can't figger it out :/ sigh. and the ipod is terribly scratched i moan when i look at it... :/

am so lifeless.. bored and i probably won't have a v enjoyable bday next week :/ have to write bloody econs essays that i'm going to fail anyway so i don't see the point of writing them. then got more crap as the days creep nearer... and going to get my french controle back and going to fail *that* one horrendously... i can't imagine. feel whiney. maybe i'll go call lam later to wail :D and i can't even go out to watch x2 next week!!! eeeeeks.

and my bro and my sister are turning anorexic.... eeeks. they eat like *nthg* much for any meal... it's scary... my brother used to be fat.. chubby at least... so that he had layers upon layers of fat... and today, when i poked him, i actually ---- hit a bone. can you imagine tt? that bone used to be well cushioned by fatty layers! and now it's practically exposed! i mean! even mine isn't so obvious! eeks. sigh.

am currently stinky and itchy from touch :) haha :D and my contacts are threatening to fall out... hmmm. was just wondering whether i should be worried about my sexual orientation? have been making too many passes at girls i see... v worrisome :D but i can't help it... it is just too funny :D and the looks on their faces! you should see them *grins* ah well. am still healthily attracted to memebers of the opposite sex tho :) so maybe i'm just bi :D ok. let's abandon this train of thought...

ah well. quite freaky tho.. was going home with jingjun on 174 today.. and at the nj busstop this nj guy got on and proceeded to stare at us... then we simultaneously tried to ask each other discreetly whether we even knew him (maybe not *v* discreet but ah well.) i thought he was looking at jingjun but she insisted he was looking at me... anyhow. it was highly unsettling. now i know why pple get beaten up for staring at other pple...

sighsigh. oh :) my class absolutely *adores* going to coro to eat during break.. so imagine this... there're like 20 odd of us strolling out of school in the morning hoping that the teachers would turn a blind eye... and we have all of 30 minutes to get there, eat and come back.. (a feat which we actually manage to accomplish give or take a couple of minutes :)

sigh. if you all don't see me online these couple of days. please understand: my mom has decided that we (me and my bro) are constantly hogging the com (we are so not!) *plus* she thinks i'm too irresponsible with stuff... so. in order to be able to still get my powerbook... i am going to stay com-free and blog-free and icq-free ( maybe not entirely cold turkey? just kinda... more infrequently...) yups. and anyhow. yeah. pray for me :D

I jump! You can look but don't you hump. I'm major. I roar. I swear I'm not a whore. We cheer as we lead. We act like we're on speed. Hate us 'cause we're beautiful--but we don't like you either. We're cheerleaders! We are cheerleaders!

haha :) sorry... the bimbo cheer thing got into my head today and it has since been stuck...

to:
the dearest leaf insect on the hair spray bottle on the right side of the mirror
shan's parents bathroom
shan's house

i am so sorry. i do not know how you got there. nor why you even got yourself into this predicament. i just want to tell you that there are no leaves in my bathroom. but since you are already there, (and probably regretting it) i guess you already know that. looking at your long (big) green body, i don't have the heart to scold you for being stupid. or being such a ninnywit to come into unchartered territory. i can only apologise to you, even though you probably can neither read nor encompass such ideas as compassion/sympathy in your mind. i (nor for that matter, my brother) dares to even move you... so i guess, you will die in my bathroom. sorry.

yours sincerely,
a very sorry shan

got the review letter. sigh. spent what 80, 90 bucks? all i got was a letter that siad: no change. if i wanted a letter i could have written it myself...

another tiring day! sheesh.. reached home at 9 today... all time low :/ but pretty fun i guess :D got to see aman's really *really* pretty ugly pufferfish which i think can't puff at all haha... hilarious :D cept i don't think it was hilarious for the fish? cos it was freezing cold in the classroom.... and they had no jackets :/

hmmm. was walking on the grate (the thingies on top of the drains to keep you from falling in? yups) and remembered sthg my mom once told me that has somehow stuck in my mind and has coloured all my perceptions about drain grates: this took place in malaysia somewhere... my aunt's friend was walking along the road when a rusty grate fell in while she was stepping on it... and there just so *happened* to be a sharp pokey rusty object in there and it skewered her from vagina to chest... piercing a few major organs along the way... i think i was like 10 when i heard this story... it has freaked me of ever walking on grates tho i must confess there is a certain (cheap) thrill in walking on something that remotely resembles an oubliette :D [oh. btw. i only recounted this story cos aman stoutly refused to listen to me say it on our way home today... so must say it somewhere :]

have decided that's it's horrible walking home on a moonless cloudy night alone... or rather it's horrible walking home on a moonless cloudy night. period. crossing the field on a dark night with chameleons and whatnot streaking across me and aman's paths calls for tons of shrieking.

sigh. tweety bird just called. and my mom just told me that this is the second time she's been called by a teacher about me... *aargh* i mean like the first call was in primary two when i refused to do my xi2 zi4!!!

sigh. was in a bloody bad mood today... actually had to turn up in school at 8.30 am for the research symposium crap :/ waste my time... at first i thought it was going to be passably interesting... especially when prof ying from mit/ibn was talking to us.. she was dressed in a suit that did nothing whatsoever to make her look more presentable and sports shoes... talking with a mixed taiwanese/american accent... but at least she knew what she was bloody talking about about nanotech and stuff :D v v interesting... cept she was pretty technical and nv really explained cheem words :/

anyway. it was freakin irritating! i cannot stand it that my class *cannot* make decisions about doing anything!!! i mean.. is it so hard to decide where the hell to go for lunch?? freak. i was glaring at evrything and evry1 and generally feeling pms-al and tt was totally aggravated by their dillydallying!! *eeks* felt damn antisocial and ready to scream and whatever. really cannot take it day in day out :/ but supposedly this happens all the time? sigh

i think cheerleading is freaking crazy too... i mean.. there's practice tmr?!?! like wth.. it's easter sunday! i wanna stay at home and hide in my rabbit hole.

i love timon :D

i love cycling!!! how bloody fun :D was cycling tandem bike with adeline today... the seat is too high and the bike is too long!! couldn't brake or anything.. and the chain was loose too.. v scary:D but v fun! cos when you're cycling tandem you can crap abt so much stuff together... let's all go cycling together!!! or rollerblade.. tho mine's broken... sigh.
hmmm. after that it was damn boring tho! wanted to go karaoke-ing but the place was bloody full!!! and had to resort to going to the arcade... sigh. my ddr is quite sad... tho in my self defense i *did* jump correctly but the machine didn't register it!!!

hmmm. yeah. it's really weird when you're going out and two of the pple around you are quite obviously ermm. trying to get to know one another better *grins* so dian4 deng1 pao4 -ish! super weird...

i want my v own sparkly eyes to gawk at :/

i hate the world today. not really lah. just hate tweety bird :/ this totally sucks... got caught playing cards in the lt during elections... sigh. really nothing to say lah :/ and then now tweety is going to call my parents, send us for cs and totally screw us for the rest of our days:/ i mean like... this is one situation for which they invented the phrase xiao3 ti2 da4 zuo4... i mean like. hrmph. she practically equated it to playing truant and all that crap lah! aargh.

sigh. ok. shall snap out of this... *happy thoughts happy thoughts happy thoughts*

haha :) played ball today *again* hrmph. playing ball with water polo pple isn't exactly the most ego-boosting thing to do... haha :) when they throw the ball it's like across an entire court lah! and they jump freakin high.... haha :) damn funny tho :D eeeks. napfa is bloody soon... going to fail my run! as usual... haha :) cmi lah :)

looking fwd to going cycling tmr! yaya :) haven't touched a cycle (whether uni or bi or anything) for like eons! so fun :D oh oh.. i really want to go for kahli's thingy tmr! but it's too late... my mom told me that we are having steamboat tmr so def have to be home by 7.... sigh. see how lah! depends on what time i finish lor :) i love ya all and i miss you :/ aaargh. so sad :/

oh yeah. today was damn suay. not only did i get damn pissed abt the cs thing i broke my hairband!!! again... aaargh.. and i actually really liked this one:/ this pastel purple zigzag one *frowns* now i have to get a new one :/ freak.

wow :) always thought that david eddings invented the word defenestration... :) just got it in my word-of-the-day list...supposedly there was even an event in history: the defenestration of prague where two important pple were thrown off the prague castle or sthg :D

hmmmm. am bloody tired... actually moved vigorously for at least 5 hours today! morning pe, bball and touch :D how fun :) cept i bloody sucked at touch today :/ aaargh.

yay... am reading alice :) thanks lam :D am happy :)

don't want to go to school tmr!!! i mean like wth.. go for elections and then it's just math lect and ct periods! aaargh. such a waste of time. not like i'm actually going to vote for anyone for council in particular... sigh. am seriously politically apathetic. but like who cares? the pple aren't exactly ermm. that inspiring. shall not bitch about anyone in particular here but suffice to say i wasn't v impressed.... *sighs* if not for the fact that due to the whole sars thingy, i would pon school tmr :/ sigh. but if i do i'll get called at home and all that shit and i actually have to produce an mc... :/

hmmm. am so tired... came back from french at like 8, had cold dinner, had the scrapings from the gelato we bought the other day (mmmmm :) butterscotch and lemon :)

sigh. s6 council next year is ermmm. not v promising... *sigh* other than a few pple with potential the rest of them are *so* un-on... so unenthusiastic... next year we die liao :/ ah well. not that i really care.

hrmph. oh. vol x of the sandman is pretty cool, tho i like 9 and 4 the best... hmm. the artist for ten is pretty good! all the characters look so gloomy but so beautiful... sigh. haha :) my dad is asking me to go eat ice cream :D just that thought makes me insurmountably happy.... *grins*

school has been so *bleargh*... i mean i'm not in the mood for mugging/paying attention, going out for lunch is like too much hassle, playing bridge has lost its glamour :/ and i just feel like screaming!!!! aaaaarghhhhh.... or alternatively punch sthg up. either will do. sheesh.

sigh. my icq is screwed... keeps going invisible *sigh*
/
ahhh :) sandman is brilliant....
/
sigh... spent so long convincing my mom to finally let me out! and guess what? lam that ***** stood me up!! ah well. got over it pretty fast since i was in a pretty stoned mood anyway but still!! sigh. took all that risk of getting sars for nothing. and my mom refuses to let me go out on tues with lynette and co!! aaargh. i think part of the reason is how they keep talking to my aunt who's in hk and how the situation is just so unbelievably panicky there... so they're getting paranoid too :/
/
oh yeah. man-u thrashed newcastle 6-2! how fun :) and i was all about to give up on them when newcastle scored first... but dumdeedum :) yay :)
/
watched xmen today again :) grace a aman :) yeah (btw, the previous line is supposed to make sense with accents) anyway. i remember now why i was so enamoured of hugh jackman... even cyclops pales in comparison! now i just can't wait for x2 and gambit.... hehe....

have you ever, when you're walking home at night and wearied from the day's travails, just raised your head, looked at the night sky and broken out smiling and grinning like an idiot? i was walking up the interminably long and winding slope home and just feeling totally stoned when i looked up into the sky and saw the moon. the half moon was glowing and there was a beautiful nimbus of light surrounding it that looked so utterly ethereal and undescribably peaceful :) the night sky was especially clear tonight, and the sky was just filled with stars -- there i was just craning my head upwards and grinning foolishly and skipping along in delight, just totally *happy* :) and i saw the constellations except i don't know their names... and there was this one that i always see on clear nights --- 3 stars in a straight line... what's that one called? i've tried to identify constellations, except that whenever i look at the star arrangements i can never tell what is what... a lack of imagination perhaps? it was just so calming, just looking into a sapphire blanket studded with stars :D aaahhh :):):) hehe :) v v happy!!!

and i was looking at the stars and i couldn't help thinking that although the stars look as if they actually were arranged so closely together they are all separated by lightyears and lightyears of space so that only us on earth can even see the constellations as we have always known them :) like a gift from the stars :)

sigh. you're speaking to E�rwen Inglorion. my supposedly elven name tho it sounds decidedly more like an earwig than an elf if you ask me :/
someone help me with econs!!

N2001
b) a govt is proposing to increase the tax on petrol. examine the relevance of price elasticity of demand and income elasticity of demand for this proposal

i need help in somehow fitting income elasticity into this...

hehe :) talk about chao bored :) this is for lifting my spirits :D





Which Disney Princess Are You?

this quiz was made by Erin

haha :) oh gawds :)

Baboon-Ooh, lucky you, you are a Baboon!!! You
enjoy being around family and you are very
smart! You can think abstractly! Youre also
the largest primate, so you usually are a
leader! Youre usually pretty busy also, and
you love fast food!


(pictures)What Kind Of Monkey R U?
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so unreal :D

What Drink Are You?

yeah!!! my com is fixed! apparently the com guy who came used an eraser to fix the problem... how cool is that? *yay* finally :) aaargh. just had a huge-deafening-heart-popping thunder crash... nearly died of shock :/ sigh. was even thinking of finally getting out of my chair and doing some exercise... sigh. there my plans go again *grins*

hehe :) am v proud... can fit in my tight jeans! yeah man :D oh. if any hc pple are reading this... tmr wear hc u k? just for one day :) i wanna see how it is... then after that i die die will wear my rg u until they force me out of it :)

i've realised i can't sleep tight at night... sigh. keep worrying and worrying... am a proper worry wart. don't even know exactly what i'm worrying abt... just feels as if something is not right you know what i mean? it's chao weird.... :/ ah well.

am utterly addicted to dynomite :) the link is on the left... :) you just keep shooting eggs and it's sthg like that shooting bubbles game ( i forget the name :) so bloody fun :) hmmm.... actually... i realised that when there's no school there's barely anything to post... i mean nothing interesting happens when you're just stagnant at home isn't it?

haha :P have been trying to get my dad to get me a powerbook... but one major flaw in my case is the fact that i can come up with no plausible reason why on earth i even need a laptop :/ sighs. speaking of which... my mom's ipod is horrible scratched... according to some ipod person you're supposed to use this metal polisher thing on it? but how on earth am i even going to find the metal polisher thing?! sian. so sad :/

aargh. actually. i really feel like swimming! what with me having finally learnt how to freestyle properly and yearning to improve my non-existent stamina... then this sars thing comes along and suddenly the swimming pool is out of bounds??? sigh.

hmm. am v upset. my class does *not* reply to my emails! i ask 'em stuff and they don't reply :/ dunno whether it's cos they 1) are too lazy. 2) do not like me or 3) did not get my mails. this is horrible. aaargh. so it turns out that i'm one of the few pple who even use the yahoogroups acct for stuff other than forwarded mails and quizzes.... :/ sigh. chao sian.

wahhh.... my computer cmi lah!! really buay tahan :/ crashed again... a full out complete crash where you can't restart the com no matter what.... it's like what? the second time in as many months?!?!?! sigh. the only silver lining in this darned cloud is that i can at least use my sis' laptop which finally has broadband access.... *sigh*

ahh. finally went out yesterday... went to jurong point and finally got some paraphernalia for my non-existent facial care regime... quite cool tho! it was on offer and my sis got this tea tree scrub thingy( which i think actually works!) and this mask thing which supposedly warms your face first tho i totally do not see the point of warming your face. must be some funky skincard thing... haha :) so now i have clean and smooth skin (in my own deluded mind that is... :D)

my bro kept telling me that chemical ali was dead and all the time i was wondering ermm yeah. so who's that dude? sigh. i am *so* out of touch. whatever :/ it's quite scary... they are interviewing the soldiers on tv and there's this almighty boom and no one cares. ah well. whatever.

my sis just downloaded a v cute game on her palm :) so fun! there are like fishes in this tank and you are supposed to feed them and then they will ermmm. 'pass' out money :) and you buy more fish and make sure they don't die and fight off alien attackers! haha :) i have no idea what the objective of this game is but anyhow. it's v v exciting :) *grins*

trying to get alice in wonderland to read... will anyone lend it to me please :) i will be v thankful :) finally got out of my house! ahhh :) went to jurong point which was people mountain people sea so if ever i was fated to catch sars i guess that's where i'm going to get it from... hmm. speaking of which... my head hurts a little now and i *have* been sneezing quite a bit :D

sigh! extended again... until wednesday... don't even know whether to be happy or not! sigh. on one hand, i can have more time to do what i haven't done... on the other... i'll be bored to death :/ sigh sigh sigh.

i) have not managed to find running partner for council and therefore decided not to run
ii) have not studied for the physics test mr quek has said will be killer
iii) have not practised piano and thus will die for upcoming exam
iv) forgot to register for may sats
v) have not drawn math graphs
vi) have not finished dreamcatcher
vii) have not exercised a jot
viii) have not studied for french test

on the other hand:
one. have done econs presentation *grins*
two. have re-read sandman I-IV and the others are on their way courtesy to kaisiang :)
three. have managed to get a free sushi meal from vernon *yay*
four. have actually even *got* my french textbooks
five. have set up a blog i'm v happy and proud of :)
six. have gotten reputation of 'html g(r)eek goddess'
seven. have learnt html (basic)
eight. have learnt how to sit for hours on end without fidgeting too much in front of the computer
nine. passed jinyong's whatchamacallit quizyourfriends quiz :) [actually, i got like 5/10 correct but still technically a pass! not like piano. where i have to score like more than 70 i think...]
ten. have managed to have more things to be happy about than all the other *glaring* things i have not!! haha :)

ahhhh. the spirit of the eternal optimist :)

aaargh. why do i get portuguese messages on my tagboard? i do not understand portuguese. i may *want* to learn portuguese in the future, and i may *like* to eat portuguese egg tarts but no ma'am. i do not understand the tags. *sigh*

lam! i realised that miss neo *nv* returned us our brilliant deep-sea habitat collage thingy!! the one where we had tubifax worms that looked like maggie all over the sea bed! haha :) just got reminded of it when i saw some leftover paper from *tt* piece of work *grins*

hmmm. realised i'm posting too often. cos i'm *totally* bored. yahoo bridge is becoming boring and i've finished the templates i promised to fiddle with :/ and i'm still grounded/quarantined.... seniors going sentosa tmr, my class going bernard's house tmr and i cannot go :(:(:( sighs. crap. aargh. *pull out my hair* sucks.

the world's good again! go visit lam's site to see what i mean :)

sigh. have only managed to get lam's thingy down to some diagonal looking thing.. *sigh* go check it out :/ and tell me if you can help me!!

today's word of the day is artless :) an entirely quaint and charming little word, n'est-ce pas? haha :) i love the word :) it's just on the same scale of as those words which *totally* sound like what they mean... like 'nefarious' sounds evil-ish but yet slightly funny? dunno how to explain *grins* if you know what i mean you just *know* what i mean.

so freaky...jo is down with 'sar-like' symptoms... fever and flu-ish stuff... which could just *be* normal flu. but could also just as easily be sars :/ hope she gets well soon. and fuzzy too (who's just plain ol' sick i think) :) sigh. and my paranoia is being slowly but steadily fed by dreamcatcher... so freaky... having something like cancer feeding on you from the inside out, and you're just rotting away and have *no idea* what's going on... sigh. i'm still halfway lost in that tome... alternately freaked out and fascinated...

oh yeah :) sandman! went to the library today and returned neil gaiman's book..dream huntersanyway. it's a v tragic little story -- folktale-ish. set in japan or thereabouts: there's a monk and a fox, and by some weird quirk of fate (which i shall skip here), the fox falls in love with the monk. there's this evil official, who's rich and powerful, but has never been at ease. He is then told by the oracles he consults, 3 old women, otherwise known as clothos and her sisters (who always recur in the stories), that for him to gain his courage and bravery, he has to kill the monk, but without blood and without pain.

the official then devises a scheme --- the monk would dream on three consecutive nights --- first about a box, then about a key, then on the third night, he would open the box and be caught in the dreaming world forever. the fox happens to hear this (a long story behind this) and seeks out the lord of the dreamworld to ask for his help--- she is told that the only way she can save the monk is to dream his dream for him. and so, the dreams start. the fox dreams the first 2 ones with him, and the third one, she dreams it for him, opens the box and is trapped in the dreamworld.

The next day, the monk wakes up, and sees the fox comatose near his temple --- not knowing how to revive her, he decides to go to the town nearby in search for a physician. But before he reaches, he meets this old man who tells him that the only person who can help him is the dreamlord himself. and so after a long roundabout way, he manages to see the dreamlord. the monk glimpses the fox, a pretty young lady in this plane, and refuses to let her take his place. he releases the fox and is himself caught. the fox is heartbroken, and vows to take revenge for the monk. the fox, by seducing the official, ruins him completely. the official is reduced to nothing but rags and bones.

i don't remember how the story ends. it's somewhere around there as far as i can remember. i skipped a lot of details in that tiny paragraph but i guess that by through a bit of imagination, most of the gaps can somewhat be filled up. but it was v moving. and oh yeah. the monk *did* love the fox. and the fact that the fox could do such utter damage and take such total revenge for her love just attests to the depth of her love for the monk.aargh. that sounds totally morbid tho... to kill for love? *sigh*

this is disgusting!!!

i cannot take it anymore.... *to the refrain of some linkin park song*

trying to get lam's template online and it adamantly refuses to! everytime i access lam's template it's *blank* no matter how many times i save the template there!!! my only comfort is that i have a backup html code for it so despite her site sadly having some nikki's template... there is still hope.

i feel so guilty! lam took me as some html shen2 :) haha... which i am *so* not and i can't help her :/ but. it is not my fault *pout*

irritated!!!! aaargh.... my beautiful template!!!! gone!!! the vladster-whatever-crap you see now is none of my doing!!!
utter disgust.

sigh. this is not working. finished tampering with lam's template but blogger is down!!!

whoa... can't stand it... realised i need many hours a sleep a day!! for me to wake up at 6, i need to sleep at 10. if i sleep at 12, i wake at 10... how sad is that? one more reason i can add to my list of 'why i can never become a doctor'. sigh. i'm practical to a fault regarding my career choices really.... after watching healing hands... i *really* wanted to be an a&e doctor --- yups. the risks, the adrenaline and all. or a medic ( that was from watching third watch) anyway. so i really wanted to be a doctor...

and then i thought: eons in medical school, waking and sleeping with my cadaver (which doesn't sound so bad :), ermmm... cutting open real life pple... (tt would be a killer.. sorry.. pardon bad puns :) and the fact that real people die whenever i make mistakes... *sigh* i guess i'm just not made out to be a doctor :/ hrmph. oh yeah. and did i say i freak out whenever people around me are in pain? yups.