hmmmm. i feel so bummer-ish... woke up at 6 plus today to go to school for exco meeting... meeting the tchrs-in-charge.. so damn crappy lah.. went there for like half an hour and went home at 8.30.... like waste of time... and i realised that these tchrs really have sthg abt decency.. maybe it's just abt hc -- you see, our costume for our dance is jazz pants and a tback black top... then she was like disapproving of it because the more well-endowed dancers may you know... sigh. and all the time i thought it was because the version that agnes showed her had thin straps... ah well.

oh. and after i came back i conked out on the bed and ermmm. woke up at 1 to eat hokkien mee then went back to sleep... sigh. i really suspect that i'm turning into a veritable pig (like evryone has been telling me :P) whatever!

jo! it was really nice talking to you too.. i really miss you all :/ like evryone... :( it's just been feeling so weird and out of place without you all :/ sigh. i love my class now but i still miss you all :/ ok. let's stop here... hate reminiscing like that! oh :) i love mac's... they've got the finding nemo toys out now! i guess i shall have to buy happy meals evry week now! :) the pufferfish bloat is so cute :P and all the others too... :)

oh yeah da... getting a new phone is so overrated... i mean the phone is v nice and all.. but not worth getting overexcited about! haha :) ah well. i guess it's cos i'm not that phone crazy :) oh yeah. guilty indulgence: chemistry... as in the bloody lame and lousily scripted show... and not the subject :) haha...i now know why lam insisted on watching light years despite the evry second cringing.... :P i think the people are damn funny... the guy's sissy ways and the girl's pseudo-accent and "guy-ish" manner :) damn lame... and hilarious :)

anyone wants to go watch reloaded with me? please please please??? i want to go cos i want to be able to watch revolutions at the end of the year.. and also vaguely cos i really want to see how good/bad it is! :/ sigh. if i hadn't fallen down then i would have happily gone and seen it damn early with lam and yl and anna and ermm. their class. whatever. at least i'd have watched it already :/ or bowling for columbine.. or how to lose a man in ten days :) or sthg. cept i'm feeling poor recently with nary 5 bucks in my wallet.. sigh. i welcome treats! :P

ah well. as bernard so kindly reminded me today... no exercise is making me fat and unhealthy... (not that i wasn't unhealthy before.. but now even more so :P) hrmph. haven't run in weeks.. nor played touch, nor danced much :/ and ate laksa and char kuay teow and cheong fun and other various delicacies :D hahaha :D i'm telling myself it's indulgence and i'd get over it in a couple of days.. so that i wouldn' feel guilty.. but bernard's got me all guilty again... :/ hrmph.

oh. i *love* watching bball!! cept for the lame attempts by councillors to get us cheering.. it was damn exciting lah!! :) yay... love the bballers for putting up such entertainment :)

justin's pep talk (delivered in sore shouts, with peppy tone) : i know a lot of you don't see the reason why we should chant "defence" but if we chant it loud enough... *dramatic pause* and *only* if we chant it loud enough--- then it would make the hoop look a *lot* smaller.

err.. you just *had* to be there...

:) haha... xueling is like damn zai! and first time i've seen sip sok and xiaoming playing :) and weilin too!! v v fun... nv knew our hc bball team was so good.... and guys too :) haha :) can imagine how bloody high they wre after winning double champs :) i so want to have a holiday!! considering hc already has 7 titles.. i think we should have a day off at least! if not one day for each title :P

anyway. i feel so sian. there are so many things to do and no time to do it... like i would run for dance i/c in fac com... but i utterly have no time what with chinese and french and touch and dance... eeeks. i want a clockstopper.

it's been hot hot hot and v hot.. heat that leeches all your strength out of you and all your determination to get things *done* just sublimes... never to be seen again. i can't believe my year is so action packed :/ like hello? aaargh. i know i've been moaning about this to just about evry1 i've been talking to --- 1 week to sats, 3 weeks to piano, 4 weeks to block tests... and all that. just utterly *aaaargh* don't even know what to say. what's with this year?? sigh. too much excitement for my weak heart :/

ah well. let me attempt to cheer myself up.
can't.

oh :) looking at my classblog makes me happy :D i love the template! sixnine.blogspot.com :D go look... cept of course there aren't any posts. at all. of interest at least... cos errmmm. as of now. there are all of 4 members.. one of them being me :/ how disgusting. waste my time.

had the oasis interview today for the australian science summer school prog... then mr pang said i looked v diff from my photo... sigh. said i looked fatter in my photo... *grrr* ah well. accordingly to evryone i look v skinny... which i don't think so... which i suppose is just a problem with my mental self-image... have no idea. i guess it's something abt the light :D light rays bend around me and create an illusion that i am skinnier than i really am! cos i really think i look normal... which people say is not the case :/ sigh.

whatever. this is so trivial i wanna puke :/ evryone around me seems to be having problems with one thing or another, more often than not with all the relationship crap or just general stupidity of certain people around them... sigh. i hate sounding angsty and eeeeks. ah well. anyway. tmr going to watch the bball matches:) yay... gd luck to yall :)

hmmm. to any of the sixnine pple who are blogsurfing... please go check your mail! finally got a classblog up.. but currently in desperate need of a new template... go do sthg!

just went to get new phone... new line... yups. hate my new no... anyway. my old one is still working i guess... but it's just the sim card sans phone.. so i guess i won't be checking that regularly! in case you wanna know it. just ask me online or sthg. abit weird to post it online i guess :) ah well. anyhow. i was so happy going home early today! then the heat just got to me... trekking home in the blazing heat really does horrors to one's psyche... i was damn pissed off by the time i got to my doorstep... sheesh.

to pple who haven't seen me recently :) i've healed! you can't even tell much that i was ever whammed in the face :)

isn't it rather scary to have someone reading a steamy novel next to you in the bus? you have *no* idea what's going to through their head... but at the same time, it's just so.. revolting! ah well. all those cheap money-spinning novels... :)

ahhh :) finally got to go shopping... got my top for mad... this t-back top.. not unlike the 411 class shirt... but tighter. *way* tighter.. i've got damn broad bones :/ ah well. why do pple bother making ugly clothes? i mean. such a waste of resources. except maybe there are people who are willing to wear ugly clothes... :) sigh. actually got really cute doggy earrings for crys! but. she wouldn't get her ears pierced.. so too bad :) they're mine now! *grins* i love that... how you get something for someone but something just crops up. oh crys: i would still give them to you if you'd go get your ears pierced! but then you'd have to wait a while b4 you can wear them... and they're dangly too! :):)

sigh. nowadays i'm perpetually hungry!!! i mean. i wake up with my stomach growling... i spend lessons moaning about how hungry i am... and i come home hungry and go to sleep hungry!!! aaaargh. i hate this. how am i supposed to grow? err. not that i think i have much potential to grow... but you know... just in case :) ah well. people's bdays have been coming fast and furious! happy belated to: crys! shuyun! yanxi! and happy early bdays to: shauna! shiping! hope you all love turning seventeen :) i dunno.. it's not sweet sixteen... nor can you go learn driving like you can if you were eighteen.. but i guess :) it's still a fun age to be :D ah well. chinese orals are coming... should practice i suppose. so people: when you see me :) talk in chinese! i need the practice... otherwise my conversation with the teacher would be limited to err... ni hao ma? *grins* hmmm. oh yeah. according to my chinese tchr... it seems as if i have to go prac my chinese twang... to sound decently chinese... but now i'm speaking weird cos of the teeth... then how? i dunno... i think my lips are closing weird now... maybe cos of the wire... v braces-ish.. but less painful :D

War Photograph
Kate Daniels
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

A naked child is running
along the path toward us,
her arms stretched out,
her mouth open,
the world turned to trash
behind her.

She is running from the smoke
and the soldiers, from the bodies
of her mother and little sister
thrown down into a ditch,
from the blown-up bamboo hut
from the melted pots and pans.
And she is also running from the gods
who have changed the sky to fire
and puddled the earth with skin and blood.
She is running--my god--to us,
10,000 miles away,
reading the caption
beneath her picture
in a weekly magazine.
All over the country
we're feeling sorry for her
and being appalled at the war
being fought in the other world.
She keeps on running, you know,
after the shutter of the camera
clicks. She's running to us.
For how can she know,
her feet beating a path
on another continent?
How can she know
what we really are?
From the distance, we look
so terribly human.

ah well. piano exam is 23rd june --- at least that means i have around a month to squeeze in all my practice and evrything... esp since i can't go for touch anymore :/ and.
err... i can't seem to input chinese! how am i supposed to finish my online chinese assignment??

bloody lakers.

bloody 76ers.

thanks everyone who left me nice getwell msgs... :) it's not as bad as it seems! it is bad but ah well. all accidents are bad, n'est-ce pas? at least. this is one of those 'could-have been worse scenarios'. love you all :D

sigh. follow up treatment sucks so! if only after the crash everything will heal by itself.. it isn't the impact that kills me. it's the aftermath: no solid food, puckered lips, drilled teeth, the prospect of teeth falling out in middle age... yups.

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Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Low
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

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oh my god... the anaesthetic is wearing off... my entire mouth aches like shit and i look like a victim of battery... quite scary really... the whole works: bloody chin, above lip area... there are bad scrapes.. and my lips are now truly like fish lips... twice as large as before! and kahli knows they looked like fish enough before! this is so surreal. i mean yeah.. i've read the whole crap abt how if your tooth falls out you're supposed to keep it in milk and everything first and get yourself double quick to a dentist to reattach it.. but how the hell was i supposed to think that it would be me? i always imagined myself as the person rushing to get milk to put the tooth in... not the person being rushed to the dentist :/

oh yeah :) according to my mom. i've had like incredibly bad luck with mishaps... first time was when i was 3 or sthg... fell off the baby chair and landed on my head... it was christmas eve. then when i was in k2... scalded my hand with boiling oil or sthg... it was another holiday.. and today's vesak day.. and i get a battered face... had better treat holidays with caution now! *grins*

ah well. am comforting myself with the thought that i'm a pain junkie now.. but the pain's coming back... ah well. shall recount to you what happened so i don't have to repeat the story again and again... so. we were having cheerleading prac. and we were even finishing already... wanted to run thru our stunts (me and charlene) so we started with the flip. i thought it was trial. she thought it was for real. and sigh. the next thing i knew was liquid in my mouth.. didn't even hurt... i wasn't even going to start crying until charlene started crying like shit... and i started too.. then of course. since it's a public holiday and all there weren't even any dentists open.. sheesh. so. got sent back home by another huishan and her friend and my aunt sent me to nuh...

it's so crappy! even tho i'm standing there clutching a bloody gauze in my mouth and the bottle of soya milk which my tooth was in, i had to clear sars tests... and after about an hour all they did was to let a nurse ask me how i fell. sheesh. and thank gdness my dad somehow managed to contact a dental surgeon who was willing to go back to help me re-attach the bloody tooth... ah well. so now the situation is this. tooth no. 21 is temporarily reattached till i get it x-rayed tmr... and even then it might not be 'externally reabsorbed'. and even if it is. it would only have a lifespan of 10 to 15 years. sigh. how lousy!!

sigh again. don't really know what to say now.. feel damn stupid... but decided i absolutely *had* to document this! haha :D like once in a lifetime... not that i particularly even *want* this one incident.. sigh. ah well. evryone's been really sweet about this but seriously. i think i'm going to be okay :):):)

btw. now haojie thinks i'm crazy cos i sounded a bit too happy in my sms-es i think :) anyway. am just hoping the swelling will subside. and i won't have to look this ugly for the rest of my life. and the whole-life-flash-before you shit? it doesn't work. or maybe i just wasn't in a lifethreatening situation... cos all there was was numbness.

am v hungry now... waiting for supper from newton.. :) growling :D
haha :) our escapades to paopaocha are so fun :D we just sprawl outside the shop and drink bubble tea, eating nuggets and fries and whatever else and talk crap :D and with charlene and joyce ard we never seem to lack in the crapping dept! :D i mean. we *do* have the presidents of the lamest 'silly pink club' in touch with us!

sigh. pple's days can be so radically different... a brilliantly gorgeous day for someone is just the worst day of their life for another :/ life is so unfair :/ sigh.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
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sigh. i think i'm screwed

haha :) stace just msged me online to say gdnite :) how sweet :D makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside *grins*

sigh. hate tests... going to fail both math and econs... didn't study a whit. how disgusting. couldn't even find my math notes so had to make do with a 5 year old textbook that my sis had... eeeks. oh yeah. i so do *not* fish for compliments! hrmph. what an insult. bleargh.

sigh again. now lam is def going to the states.. not that she wasn't def going to the states b4 but now it's like clad in iron or sthg :/ going to miss you you twit! and you didn't even tell me and i had to read it from your blog! like hello! hrmph. ah well. not that i see her v often nowadays anyway. sigh. i don't see *anyone* v often anymore. i mean from rg. sigh. i dunno... just miss the crazy purple classroom and the cockroach condo that really stinked. speaking of which.. where *is* our yearbook?? how inefficient...

ah well. mg dance night is on july dunno what. anyone wants to go? cos my mom's in charge of dance this year, so i guess it's rather easy to get tics... whatever :) it's after block tests i think. today's efforts to study maths was utterly thwarted by lovely bones... sigh. it's v touching i guess.. you have to read it to understand what i mean... sigh. first book i've read in a long time that made me cry :/ hrmph. quite a nice feeling despite everything... just curling up in my couch and reading and crying :) except i was also v sad cos the edges of the cover was bent... hate that! eeeks.

anyway. song stuck in my head today :) fire by des'ree and babyface :) nthg to do whatsoever with my msg-ing program but oh-so-catchy :D

Oh when we kiss
I'm on fire
Your tenderness gives me desire
I can't resist (I can't resist)
your tender lips (your tender lips)
When we kiss (When we kiss, oh, baby)
Ooh - Fire (oh, oh)
Fire

haha :) the typical fire-desire thing :) how appropriate that des'ree sang it :D

ok... so i'm a bit slow noticing the poem :) but ah well... damn tired today... hope everyone's matches went well! *grins* had disgusting sat diagnostic.. like the crappiest thing ever! sigh. was so tired i was dozing off between sections.. how horrendous. then had piano and then had to go back to school for cheerleading! aargh.

oh. but v fun! i love flipping! after the first few unfortunate attempts where i landed damn painfully on my bum and went totally hysterical... i actually landed on my feet! how novel! but now my ankles hurt from the impact... eeeks. haha :) actually. it was charlene that had to work really hard... flipping me... letting me stand on her and stuff... after a while she just couldn't take it anymore... poor girl! :):):) i was just so high from flipping :)

yesterday was brilliant! met up with like many many many pple! :D and got my v weird present... despite reassurances from hweeying, anna and yingling that i look fine in the skirt lynette kahli jane and co gave me i just totally think i look like a sushi bar waitress... sigh. it's just pretty weird.. as in it looks cool in theory... but when i wear it i just ermm. yeah. whatever :/ haha :) the dance night was pretty cool... as in it was too short lah but i loved the mj dance and the syf dance was pretty cool despite the moaning voice... and the rest were pretty cool i guess... oh yeah :D loved the one with the drums! yay :) fantastic drummer :D

ah well.
aaargh. have to study math and econs... test on monday! and i haven't touched it at all.. and am going to eat steamboat buffet lunch if we actually do... and mother's day dinner.... screwed man... :/ i actually still think my hair's pretty weird... am becoming totally obsessed abt it already... :/ ah well. as evryone has been comforting me... hair grows :/ i think. oh. bitchy bingyi. i wore glasses to school today and he said i looked dreadful!!! what a *&%$%@#$ hrmph. whatever!!! shall go study now.

i'm v sad... evrytime i look in the mirror i see a shorn sheep :/ hrmph. so unused to it! haven't got such a short do in like eons!!! haha :D shall think of all the bald canoe guys in comfort :) their heads are so nice and fuzzy! it's like a furry sticker :):):) and it seems as if bald guys tend to rub their heads a lot more! and it's so comical!!! :D haha... oh yeah :D was in the library when i read judith's comment :) how happy-inducing! hehe :D laughed a bit too loud i think... many pple turned round to stare at me :)

fuzzy showed this to me today... positive i've seen it somewhere before but first time i've really read it properly :)

He wishes for the cloths of heaven
Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams.
-- William Butler Yeats

just went to get my hair cut... i guess the word to describe it would be 'uhoh'... haha :) sigh. now my hair is chin length and makes my look totally ermm. studious. to say it in the nicest way possible... oh.. i love book fairs :) there's one in hc now and we're getting 15 bucks subsidies from some edusave grant... and i really want to get the tennyson poem collection! it's utterly gorgeous... and aaargh :) haha :) either that or saki... but saki's seven plus and tennyson is like 17... eeks. ah well. whatever :D love book fairs anyhow

sigh. am growing fat! in the wrong places :/ imagine! i'm growing a double chin... or more accurately... my double chin is growing fatter :/ of the grossest things! :) haha. this sounds damn boliao.. but i am! sigh. anyway. have got nightcrawler on my desktop now... oh.. anyway. don't you think mystique is damn cool? she's so pretty :) and has got such a great figure too :D ah well :) shall go do sthg constructive now... other than finding more ways just to keep staring at my powerbook :) (which. to my frustration, is burning up under my wrists now :/

haha :) so happy! we finally finished the mad dance for track and field! hehe :D yeah man! and i can actually remember the steps! *grins* and during prac today, we decided to choreograph a new mass dance for hc! :D perhaps we can do it for cip! *grins* then we'll finally have a decent mass dance...

eeeks. 2.4 tomorrow! i better not fail... otherwise i'll have to go for remedial pe!! like wth!!! aaargh. and i utterly detest running :/ shall pia i guess. hrmph. whatever. just get it over and done with! *grrrr*

shall go do my long wen2 shrink short and understand-answer now. hate chinese hate chinese hate chinese....

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ugh. woke up feeling damn sick :/ now my whole nose is clogged up and i can't breathe :/ shall petulantly go listen to faith hill sing 'breathe' anyway... and hope my nose gets the hint *frown*