i have no idea why i'm so sensitive. but in any case. please -stop- asking me why i can't go out. cos i can't. and that's it, ok? long story. way longer than i care to talk abt. so there.

sigh. anyhow. the little girl i'm giving tuition to is so sweet :) she doesn't look sec 1 at all, nor does she act it.. i'm sure i was never like her when i was sec one.. :)

i'm bored out of my mind at home. i can't bring myself to write happy xmas cards when i'm so bloody miserable. so i suppose you'll all get really really belated merrychristmasandahappynewyear! cards :) but i still love you! i just don't feel like writing cards tt's all :)

narsil costs 248 pounds! like freaky. what i don't understand tho.. is this:
Hardware, instructions included. hmm. would the instructions go like... unsheath, swing and hit nazgul? but it so rocks.

sometimes i don't understand why people can be so muleheaded about stuff. they don't listen to reasoning. they give a flat out NO and then shut their ears to anything else. i always believed that no matter what i'd be able to get my way with superior reasoning and diplomacy. and then i realise. what naivete. it's so typical but yeah. i chafe at my reins. forget it.

it'd be -so- immensely weird to reply to the question 'so what've you been doing lately?' with 'i've been selling cigarettes'. wouldn't it?

swoon. look at the photo gallery

uploading photos. such a chore :/ anyway. you'll see them here
i think you'll have to login to see 'em.. sorry :P just that it was the nicest plc to upload them to and yahoophotos wouldn't work. ah well.

haven't felt like blogging much. no thoughts deeper than a puddle to muse about. no special incident i wanna shout about. life's been so-so. melbourne was fun but i already talked about it.. so i lost all impetus to gush/whine/complain about it here. wait for me to gain some momentum for that :)

anyway. i always used to think i was really emotional and crybaby and all that. and now i realise that only beautifully packaged images on film tug at me like that. shift it all into reality and i cease to feel the pain/regret/love/yearning. everyone around me talks about how much they -feel- about things, and i just smile/nod and agree, cos it's so much easier to. just a coldhearted bitch here thankyou. and happy to be so.

we waited an entire year for this. and boy was it worth it! :D me and des were gushing throughout the movie... hopefully the people ard us were more bemused than annoyed at our sharp intakes of breath whenever legolas gave his thoughtful looks or when aragorn just stood there. the scenes were breathtaking. and i wanna watch it again! ah well. this being the first day of screening i shall just content myself w having talked abt rotk nonstop on the way home w aman anna and des (instead of talking too much abt it here).. hehe. this rocks so much i wanna i-dunno-what. *huge grin*

i don't even remember what happened before i watched the show anymore. oh wait i do :) hehe. other than karaoke (which was really fun. but hey i'm not that much a fan of ktv :) des was giving lynette a synopsis of fotr and ttt.. and it was absolutely hilarious. if i'm not wrong, part of the synopsis went like this: so. there's this evil ring. and the heros have to go to the bad guy's house to destroy it. *gales of laughter* ... and talking abt the bit where gandalf fought the whatever-monster in the mines of moria: He fell.

ah well. at least lynette seemed like she really liked the show :) so all was good :P i wanna watch it again i think. but i only wanna fastfwd it to the bits i really really liked. which only means glossing past the dreary sam/frodo bits :)

High~

Queen rocks!!

my eyes are dying on me :/ so a couple of hours after i was in the library surfing the net i'm on again... this time in the computer lab in clarke's (one of the dorms here) sighhh. it's another gorgeous imac running on (gasp. os x!) but aaaargh. it sucks. cos there's sthg wrong w the connection or sthg. (or maybe they disable it on our accts the sneaky fellas) but i can't log into hotmail, sign in to either messenger or icq. like hrmph. can't do nuts. cept research on eugenics. aaaaaaaargh. i'm so sian. and i wanna sleep :/ but it's only 9pm. it's really weird... been so tired these few days. i'm positive it's cos of the heat :(

need eyedrops! but that's far away in my (dirtymessyfilthy) room. which has no bed. cos i'm sleeping w qiaomei and charlene :p (ooooh. that's sounds so.. interesting no?) ok. going to lygon street to eat icecream! ciao :)

am in the melb uni library now.. using an utterly sweeeet imac. groovy. ah well. one of my lecturers had a 15" powerbook. but i didn't dare go tell him he rocks. so whatever :)

bio lab sessions rock. yesterday we cut up a bovine eyeball. and you know how cats and some animals' eyes reflect light when you shine a light into it? yeah we saw this greenish blue iridescent layer just below the retina. sweeeet. and then we had optometry sessions where we examined each other's eyes and i saw claire's blue contacts thru the magnifying thingy whatever :) so cool! it rocks la. i love lab. and today we had genetics lab. so then we knocked out normal and mutated drosophila (fruit flies) with CO2 and examined them under the microscope... they're icky looking. after tt, we dumped them into the 'fly morgue' which was essentially a jar with drowned flies in ethanol. poor things. i is murderer :/

ah well. it's 35 freaking degrees out today. and it was 30 yesterday. and there promises to be a thunderstorm tmr. like wth. what freaky weather they've got here la! anyhow. my clothes are started to be so monotonous cos i only brought jeans and tshirts. so whatever... sigh. my eyes are drying out :(

have to do project :( for this science summer school thingy. damn. i'm doing eugenics tho.. decided it was kinda fun. but i needs helps :) please email me if you're free to help! hehe. you could write my report for me. or give me ideas on how to present! yay.

i miss you pple! please organise an outing!! for me to go walk walk look look see see :) before we start on the horrible year called j2. k? *muah* miss you all. and thanks for the emails :)

just finished lab session... quite lame la... doing stuff like dissolving chlorophyll in ethanol and running it thru a spectrometer to have a nice readout on light absorbency of diff wavelengths and similar stuff... aaargh. quite nice and slack tho i suppose :/ hmmm. realised quek is really lame! he was like telling ghost stories and dirty jokes in the night and you totally can't tell that he's a tchr la. ah well. the food here ain't fantastic :( i'm sad. but at least it means that i won't grow -too- fat i guess.

btw. shopping here ain't fantastic either. but it's quite fun i suppose :D the lectures have got tons of demonstrations (the only parts where i stay awake... ) and they're really fun. the lecturers are really crazy too which helps i suppose :D am too well conditioned to sleep whenever people launch into monologues... anyhow. yesterday was abt light and EM and stuff and today was cryptology and a little on quantum (where he promptly skipped all the complex equations. hurrah :)

no one send me mail. i is sad :/ ah well. and lam's studying for finals (good luck girl!) and yups. everyone else is having fun i suppose. and i'm alternating between freezing my fingers off and getting burnt. weird weather melbourne has... :D and what with the flies... aaaargh.

hey! am so happy. first time i've touched a com in -days-. it's been relatively cold here (after the first 2 days of extreme heat :) and so i haven't been warm in like 2 days. tho it's only abt 26 degrees out today according to the radio. but aaargh. i need extra layers of insulation:P i miss you all! it's lovely here tho cept for the constant swarm of assorted flies that follow us -everywhere-. heh. anyone wants australian postmarks? i'll send postcards (soon) if you wanna receive them :D but i need addresses cos like the only one i have is lydia's... hmmmm. email me! sms me! (my phone is up and running! finally. but yeah. it ain't cheap. i'll prob use like internet sms which i pray is free :)

love the dress sense in melbourne :P everyone's in nice short skirts. but i'm too cold for that unfortunately. and the surfwear here is the same price as back home. or maybe more ex. riiiight. so there goes my shopping spree :/ but of course queen vic market is absolutely gorgeous :) you change in the back of trucks (as in changing rooms for trying on clothes?) and the wind is so absolutely strong that the curtains threaten to whip open and display pple in their otherwise undressed states. :D

tumteetum. miss you love you send me mail :) -muah-

i'm hyper and can't get to bed :) the plane will leave in... 10 hours and 25 minutes :D i'm so paranoid. while packing all i could think of was... if my luggage gets lost would i be able to survive on my carryon bag? if i get pickpocketed would i still have enough money to buy my stuff? if someone slashes my bag/if i lose it/if i forget where i put my money (highly possible seeing how i've stashed money in a 100 different places)

ok. in case i do not come online anymore in the next two weeks (well nigh impossible) i have a dozen little things to say to everyone! :D

jireh: please don't die during your operation. highly impossible anyway... but take care and eat soft food!
lynette kahli yl anna wei gi des aman: yay :) let's go watch rotk when i return :) funky groovy. i love ya all and don't miss me too much!
to my class: please please please think of sthg to do for class outing! let's not be so sian :D erm. pref sthg not to do with either the sun's daily routine
to senior class: yay! your exams are finally over!! have fun relaxing and we must go out tog one of these days :) and erm. yeah. frederik: i know i still owe you a present! but its whereabouts are as yet unknown :)

yay. and to all of you pple. have a great holiday cos i know i'm going to!!

there is a thin line between gratuitous violence and art. i don't know where that line is. fight club was disturbing to say the least. amazing but disturbing. now i figure that if i really want to know what i want to do in life, i'll just get someone to point a gun and my head and scream threats and obscenities at me and i'll come up with an answer.

bored out of my mind. there's just one word to describe the going-ons in my life right now: NOTHING. aaaargh. there really is -nothing- to talk abt nthg to think abt nthg to do anything abt!! bahh. ok. maybe there's packing. but i've shoved my gigantic luggage out of sight, out of mind :) which is sort of bad but heck care la. downloading fight club now. taking eons but eons are what i have... eons of empty time/space stretching out ahead of me. ominous <-- oooh. tt looks like omnibus. why is omnibus omni - bus ? like ok... omni meaning every/all (i.e. omniscient, omnipotent) but bus? hmmm.

ENTP - "Inventor". Enthusiastic interest in everything and always sensitive to possibilities. Non-conformist and innovative. 3.2% of the total population.

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really?! v unreal.

voilà! the fashion show from hell. i've discovered that everytime i have to pack my luggage i don't have enough clothes. ergo, mom ransacks entire place for clothes that look even remotely like my size. you cannot imagine how scary it is! the downright ugly, the ill-fitting, the mismatching... you name it we've got it. the backlog of weird clothes just goes on and on. i nv fail to wonder at our (collective) bad taste from years back. and now i'm v tired from changing into a neverending assortment of bad clothes to find just one set to wear for formal nights. it also doesn't help that it's going to be colder there resulting in unsuitability of normal clothes. aaargh. it would really help if i had more nice clothes :) yeah right.

it appears that sunsets do not wait for anyone. so we found out yesterday. :P ah well.

the buskers' fest was fun i suppose. but they do so lack in creativity sometimes... like in the space of an hour two fireeaters cracked the stupid joke abt fire tasting like chicken. sigh. gets a little painful :) even if it -was- delivered by a relatively cute guy :) but fun :) i wondered if they made fish-flavoured fire. or maybe steak-flavoured but charlene refused to speculate on it with me for some weird reason.

it's so crazy sometimes. i'm bored out of my mind and yet i refuse to do anything. like now.

i sometimes wonder if i have self-destruction tendencies... wanted to cut my hair today... so i walked out to the shops near my house and just got into the first hairdresser's i saw. now my hair is back to the same state as it was when i was moaning about how short and icky it was. riight :)

ahhh. as usual. dinner interrupted highly engrossing rugby final :/ missed all the secondhalf crazy stuff that happened :( sigh. all that extra time! but still. it was hilarious. me and my bro were sitting near the window at the restaurant (not really -window- but like a glass wall :) and squinting into the pub across the road trying to watch the match sans commentary on the bigscreen tv :D my brother was telling me stuff like.. flatley converted a penalty! and seconds later jonny scored a drop goal! and since i couldn't really see anything due to a combination of badeyesight and badplacing... aaargh. thought for a moment he was bluffing. heh. anyhow. after establishing the score (20-17) i went back gleefully to tom yam soup and stuffed chicken wings :D the food was really good.

hehe. my hands now smell queerly of lavender/durian. and my stomach is churning... damn i've been eating too much and exercising too little... i've been facing a screen all day these past few days. and my eyesight is deteriorating. again. sigh... and i'm still indignant that lam's grown taller! while i'm still languishing. hrmph. it must be the air over there. or the food :P

ok. i need to go get a life. see you around :)

p.s. marathon tickets are all sold out! so i guess we'll forgo the 12 hour ordeal of sitting in a crowded cinema with noisy uncivic-conscious cinema goers who probably aren't all crazy fanatics like some of us are.

p.p.s. we are getting tickets asap! cos like tickets are going scarily -scarily- fast. according to my sis some cinemas' evening shows are sold out till christmas eve. like wth! hrmph.