i hate feeling this bored all the time. even when i'm doing something vaguely entertaining the feeling of sian will suddenly creep into my consciousness and ruin everything else for me. (there really isn't a word that is quite as evocative of the feeling of boredom and emptiness as the word sian.) ah well.

my skin feels leathery. the aloevera (which, incidentally, is lu2 hui4 in chinese :) gel is merely holding off the inevitable stage of peeling... v snakey feel to that. not necessarily bad but brings to mind disgusting images of patchy mottled fair/dark skin. oh yeah. reminds me literally of the horny layer of the skin. ermm. that's what it is right? 7 mths of separation (omg. it's been so long?!) from lampengkwan has totally robbed me of any bio knowledge whatsoever. :( somehow the idea of being an insufferable knowitall has always appealed to me :P the spouting of crap just to irritate pple ard me... ahhhh. irresistable :D

oh yeah :) happily... jac commented that it seemed as if my legs got more muscular recently :) the reason for that happily eludes me, seeing how the only time i moved at a pace faster than a walk was monday. when i biked. and moved my limbs. but still :P v v happy. but still. it's highly irritating and i know it but when pple compliment me like that i invariably think of two things: that means my legs were horrendous before? or does that mean my legs are fatter now?! i mean like. hello? incurably vain and horrible pig. sigh.

was scouring through my wallet today during math lect (differentiation which is alternately a pain in the ass and the most fun topic yet :) anyway. my ic was *no* where to be found!!! freaked the hell out of me... then i was thinking... 100 bucks for replacement.. oh no... and i so liked the photo on it too... and totally irrelevant stuff like that. but. i called jurong west library and realised that i left it there.. tho the woman who picked up was disgustingly horrible and tried to con me that it wasn't there and then i got desperate and i think it was in my voice and she finally admitted that it was there. so now i have to make a trip down to jurong point, get sidetracked by various highly interesting shops, pick up a couple of boxes of granola bars and whatever crap :) what a nice excuse :P

speaking of excuses.. is there anyway i can convince my mom to let me go for lam's airport departure on wednesday? sigh. i can't think of any... considering how she explicitly told me no already :( sometimes i wish she would just let me judge what's best for myself, and then sometimes i just accept it as a obligatory side effect to having an over-caring mom :/

i keep sleeping during lectures and talks.. it seems as if all you have to do is give me a chair, set s1 to talking in the front of the lt or audi and i'll automatically shut my eyes and sleep.. it's not even a conscious thing! i'll train my eyes on the speaker and then suddenly he/she would disappear to give way to the image of the back of my eyelids. and then i freak and wonder whether he/she saw that cos it's horrid to speak to sleeping pple :(

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oh groovy! there's a new product.. spray-on pantyhose :P just spray onto legs and you're ready to go :)
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just realised that jireh's blog links to lv and estee lauder and absolut vodka! :D ah well. but. they aren't exactly awe inspiring
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oh yeah. i realised that i'm one of few foureleveners who don't drool at the sight of beer/vodka/wine. sigh. i think it's hereditary.. my dad goes beetroot after one can of beer. my mom is alcohol-intolerant. my sis goes woozy and a bit nuts after one glass of white wine. with dinner. sigh! at least it's a blessing for my liver.. which i suspect isn't too strong anyway :P
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does it work? if people start linking you with somebody else then after a while it really becomes true? seems to be happening right before my eyes :P but then again. everyone's so shy so i dunno :D but. quite an interesting social phenomenon, n'est-ce pas?
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i realised that staying in a tiny house with 6 other pple can be alternately vivacious and downright irritating. when i'm feeling sociable, i can always find someone to do sthg with me.. including watching sex and the city and drool over their crazy clothes :P and all sorts of korean/jap serials (btw. i way prefer jap drama but they don;t seem to sell them anymore :( but. when i'm feeling pesky i have to lock myself in the toilet to get any sort of privacy... i love nights tho :) when my sis isn't crazily foul, me and bro and her sing songs loudly out of tune with lousy harmonising and basically gossipping about all sorts of shit. it's amazing how darkness and the lull of sleep lowers all sort of defences and everything just comes out.
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i wanna have photographic memory so that i can not study, i can place names to faces immediately without the embarrassment and guilt that forgetting brings, and so i don't have to re-remember my dances quite so torturously.
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i could go on and on. it's like when i was writing ace journal for blin --- basically an exercise in free association... whatever comes to my mind. and since my mind doesn't shut down (most of the time anyway) it's sort of like verbal diarrhoea. no linkage whatsoever. no point to anything i'm trying to say. and i must say. i'm gaining stamina :P
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i love crys' new template. it's gorgeously crystal. it's a crystal frog! for some reason. i've always associated her aura with green. it's like you think of pple as colours. but then most of the time it fails because i realise that the association tends to reflect her house colour :( what a waste of my time. like fuzzy is a yellow person def. lam? can't really tell. aman's def red. jo's brownish. ah well. screw colours
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i love the idea of having a personal scent. a scent that's keyed to you and you alone so that whoever who smells it is immediately reminded of you. unfortunately. i have a lousy nose that can't differentiate btw smells.. like. i can't tell the diff between happy and say.. some calvin klein scent even if my life depended on it. so the idea's all nice and romantic.. but. i'll probably just get sthg that smells vaguely good and heck care about the layers of lavender and lilac and whatever :P
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i want my yearbook. sadly currently in lam's possession
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i like artemis fowl. he uses a powerbook.
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i love you all!! :D

i'm a burning ember... a going-to-peel-red piece of overcooked meat. sigh. it always happens the same way: a nice hot sunny day, an unresistable promise of a glowing tan, and then the pain :/ ah well. i was supposed to tan! into a nice honey colour... but unfortunately.. all i am now is a lobster... anyone up for lobster sashimi? you could eat me alive and i doubt i could feel more pain... but having ranted enough about the pain of sunburn... oh how fun the past few days have been!! haha :P

shopping and bowling and library-ing and movie-ing and neoprint-taking-frenzy and sentosa-madness have done wonders to my life :P ah well. charlene and i have resolved to train up nice bods to fit into nice bikinis in the near future.. tho knowing our definition of near future, we'll probably nv ever end up within 10 feet of a bikini :/

gee. i keep having to remind myself that i'm a pain junkie.. i'm a pain junkie. the sun is my enemy not my friend. i am solidifying now into a moisturiser caked lobster... i think i'll stay here for the rest of the night and not go to sleep.. i'm a natural source of heat now that i can see heat waves emanating from my face... haha :P save money.
i should take stock of my injuries: burnt --> scalp, eyelids, face, ears, earlobes, shoulder blades, fingers, palm. ah well. the sun is my enemy not my friend. can s1 pls remind me of that the next time i refuse to put on sunblock? whack me over the head with the bottle or sthg...

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the cats prowling around the gates are such pretty little things.. tho i always have the sneaky feeling that they linger there solely to earn cuddles and canoodles from pple like me :P ah well. not that i mind.. the deep-throated purrs are so gratifying and the way they twine in and out of my legs and nudge my calves and lie down on my shoes :) oooh.. kitty heaven! of course. i don't really like the siamese cos it's pushy and dao. but still... when it practically followed me home i was won over :) ah well. and now i really love cats... but not fat cats like garfield tho.

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it's the queerest of feelings. my skin is burning up but i'm incredibly cold cos of the night breezes.. like the way sometimes you are so so thirsty but desperately need to use the toilet.

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my class is so weird.. like the class guys went to sentosa only to leave after a couple of hours to go lan. like hello? they went all the way from sentosa to ginza plaza to lan. yeah. ah well. the priorities of different pple :) but. amazingly many pple turned up! ah well :P it's amazing what a novelty this is...

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realised after jurong point that i don't like fish.. can't pet can't purr to tell you they love you... can't talk like nemo... what a rip-off. but. apparently eugene's tank is like a mini chem experiment in keeping them alive... *and* he also apparently talks fish...

eugene : i gotta give my tank a complete water change. remind me to buy salt 2molow. the nitrate content iz too high, some of fishes seem to be dying. haiz so sad
me: oh man... ermm how do you happen to know?
him: well u can see frm the way the fishes look at u with those "pls change my tank water" kinda look.

yeah right. ah well. i guess i don't really like fish all that muchos except evilly to eat them :( oh no.. what would nemo say?

anyway. i love these days and i don't want them to end! haha :P gosh i sound so whiny! but still. anyway. getting block tests results back.. doing horrendously. i am so in need of studying. can we please please study together? otherwise i'll nv get anything done!

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life's so unfair it's cliched. the iranian twins died today one after another. yeah they knew the risks, but did they ever for one minute really really believed that they would never see the sun rise again after the anaesthesia kicked in?

ooooh :) hilarious gollum commercial!

just caught up with reading pple's blogs... read jane's one about missing 411... and it's made me all moody :( it's really as if everything has just dissolved right before my eyes and slipped through my fingers i can't grasp hold of anything. and now lam's going and it's all really falling apart. i never really appreciated how utterly together we were as a class that pple knew to avoid me when i was pms-ing and we avoided other pple with pms and we did such crappy things together that just doesn't seem like it's likely to happen in jc anymore. i freaked out on the bus today when i realised that i couldn't remember our physics tchr's name.. but i can *so* remember her face! aargh. this is *not* good. and. i really liked the way classes were held and not the way it is totally screwed up now. and i feel ranty and horrid and i'm basically in a really foul mood tho since today's last day of common tests it should be better than this.
saw dalena today in orchard and realised how far apart we are... like lam said. it's super weird to rediscover your friends four years after you last left them and we rgp bunch really didn't keep in touch did we? i miss *those* crazy days too... ares :) and zeus and hermes and hera and everyone. it was crazy... but now i realise i really don't remember anything much about then. and i don't want to have gaps in my memory especially where there are supposed to be good ones.

and now i feel all horrible reminiscing cos it helps nothing and only makes pple feel worse. let's never lose touch shall we? if need be i'll rent a jet and we'll all fly over to america to have a nice little jaunt together just so that we'll never leave again. aw man. that so doesn't make sense (which reminds me of my chinese essay)

sigh. yesterday was a *bad* day man! ah well. but at least i finished studying chem :P except for rxn kinetics which i absolutely detest! ah well. look on the bright side i guess :) which sure was what i was trying to look at yesterday and failing miserably.

so. at the dentist's, he promptly began to demonstrate to me that to be a dentist, one has to be ruthless and uncaring abt the pain one's patient is under, able to speak gibberish that frighten the hell out of her, strong, and able to ignore the disgusting sight of drooling patients. sigh. so now my tooth is filled and inflamed (again) because the cement he used to secure the fillings were driven up inside the tooth. and voila. that cost me 300 bucks... and *sigh* naive girl that i am. brought only 150. so am now happily in debt to the dentist, in addition to having a painful tooth. but i wonder... cos supposedly my tooth is dead technically i.e. no nerve. then why does my tooth ache? doesn't make any sense. hrmph.

so then, i went to orchard library in an attempt to study chem there... and since the place was full up and not all that conducive to a studying spree, i left with sword-born and ah well. oh :) i love tiffany's~ i mean. so maybe it's overpriced and all that.. but the boutique's gorgeous :) ah well. i don't suppose they'd let me would they? ruin their image :) sigh. anyone keen to break in with me sometime? my sis got a v nice tiffany charm bracelet there for her birthday.. :/

so anyway. then i missed 77, and when i finally got home, realised that no one was at home and that i had forgotten my keys. sigh. my grandma went to have a spree on nel and my brother's on camp, my mom still at camp.. sigh. so i buckled down to study on the little table in the void deck.. tho i must say.. quite a nice place :) it was v v windy and basically v shuang :) ah well. of course. being the optimistic person that i am, i didn't even notice this supposed 'run of bad luck' until lam pointed it out to me cos i sms-ed her at regular intervals to update her on my sucky situations :) ah well.

i wanna go shopping b4 the sales are all over :( cos i need: berms, shorts, tops and various other stuff. weelllll. anyone wanna come? :P

i hate exams... they *always* without fail (ooh. there's that word again:) make me feel guilty.. tho that, i suppose, has to do with the fact that i suck at studying. how can anyone sit down for hours on end just stuffing things into their head? sigh. it's like my attempt to do econs today.. which i have happily nearly finished except for elasticity and monopoly :D yay! i mean. first day of real studying.. maybe last too.. shite. damn screwed. almost wish i were in lam's shoes and happily going off to study elsewhere. and then i realise that i would have absolutely no notion of what i want to study. which means i would probably prefer a 6mth hiatus to find out what the hell i wanna do.

i'm afraid i don't make much sense to myself anymore. oh man. freaky. evil laughs on chinese drama serials are 100% reproducible.. at least on *all* chinese drama serials... the same old "haaahaaahaahaaa" and the villain throws his/her head back and opens their mouths wide.. displaying decayed blackened rotting teeth. ooh. delectable :P

haha... oh god.. watching the new chinese drama serial now on channel u is hilarious. just realised that there are certain set phrases that practically every serial *has* to use... �����5�b�سɷ� ok. weird typing. but anyhow.. sigh. v sian now. should probably go to sleep.. got disgustingly painful dental appointment to think about for tmr :(

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oh man! nerdy?! sigh. i like ross. but he's so. geeky.

ah well. am ploughing thru hp5 now... must say.. ploughing is an awfully apt word considering that the k'ters are acting way out of k'ter and everyone's being bitchy and irritating. am praying it gets better...

shite. exams are *this* monday... am so terribly screwed! what am i going to do? and the piano is not going to help matters seeing how the one i'm going to play on for the exams is a lousy kawai piano that barely squeaks when you bang on it.. and the pedals suck and the tone is just gross. eeeks. i need all the help i can get!

yeuchs. it's disgustingly hot recently... wth is wrong with the weather system? aaargh. i keep bathing and keep sweating immediately after i barely feel clean before i have to go shower again. sigh.

i love the morning :) when i do get up early enough and don't feel too groggy that is... there's just this feeling of wondrous solitude when everyone else is asleep and only you're awake, padding around softly, free to do whatever you want :) i feel postitively industrious! haha... anyway. i really wanted to blog today cos i found my ace journal that blin made us write :)

read through it... freaked myself out :p i sound errmmm. yeah. brainless-ish. i wonder if i really was like that? horrifying... :) ah well. periodic rereadings of journal entries seem to do wonders for the ego :D haha.. especially stupid stuff that blin actually replied to! 'don't mind all those spelling liberties i'm taking, ok?' and he replies 'alright'. eeps. and you can actually track my progress from reluctant journal writer to prolific entry maker... haha...

hmmm. does anyone remember me reading accident by elie wiesel? i *don't* even when i read what i supposedly wrote about it... talk about short term memory! sigh. and the v bad a math relief teacher we had before mrs kwan who wrote: 'please settle down quickly' on the board talk about incompetency! sheesh. oh :) me and blin had a nice elitist talk about how we couldn't condone incompetency :P haha :) and then i even had a v nice quote from einstein --> 'all great minds have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds'. ah well. talk abt. haha.. am beginning to think that my dance tchr is one such person. (the latter of course... the type who ju1 ni4 xiao3 jie2 :) sigh. had to have a committee meeting just to draw up a work plan that involves us jotting down *every* single practice that we are ever going to have! i mean. crazy!

oh. and i realised that my 'angsty' entries (or at least those that were supposed to be angsty) were nothing of that sort... and i vaguely remember being pissed off horribly in my entries? sigh. there was only one. and it wasn't even. it said stuff like 'i'm in a totally foul mood now'. 'this is sucky'. haha... guess i'm too happy a person to be angsty :p even fashionable angsty :)

and i love free associations :) they're always so fun... there's this one where i wrote 'what you see in the mirror is the face you present to the world'... hmmmm. v v traumatising right now. thinking of all the days where i just looked positively awful... and the world saw it? haha.. ah well. am just indulging my vanity.. pardon me. btw. vanity is half-inborn and half-inculcated. have realised that while all my family members begin to preen at a v young age, we are in fact encouraged by each other to do so :) like yesterday... i thought my dad was going to sleep when he whipped out a tube of the mask thing.. and promptly 'applied a thick film of mask' to his face :) ah well. he takes better care of his skin than me... and he isn't even as prone as me to break out!! eeeks. i am ashamed of myself :p

anyway. the vain me has to stop now and go get packed for today's chalet... and preen and stuff too... sigh. anyhow. lam... remember this quote? v morbid v interesting... and i don't know where we got it from.


i was once more struck by the truth of the ancient saying: man's heart is a ditch full of blood. the loved ones who have died throw themselves down on the bank of this ditch to drink the blood and so come to life again; the dearer they are to you, the more of your blood they drink - nikos kazantzakis zorba the greek

my younger self doesn't seem to be part of the same self that i remember

ah well. finally got my lazy bum off my chair and went off to do some swimming yesterday like i've been promising myself to do ever since i noticed the *ahem* less-than-sightly bulges. big mistake. forgot that sunday is 'family day' and as such, some irritating family would be in the pool shouting and screaming and basically just get into the way of more *serious* swimmers (serious in comparison anyhow...) sigh. i hate pesky kids... these were the obnoxious DAAAAAADDDDYYYYY type of kids... and the showoff daddies who would dive underwater and hold their breaths and when they get out would shout 'SEE? DADDY DID IT!' sheesh. and they *would* insist on staking out the middle part of the pool. which means i couldn't swim any sort of distance at all... just confine myself to the deep end and swim across the small bits and swim back again. grrrr.. v pissifying. but. there was this v nice little girl in the deep end with me.. rolling her eyes (i think cos i couldn't see clearly without my glasses) at the irritating kids... sigh. oh. anyway. she was v nice cos she was all quiet :P and she looked totally natural in the water... diving and cartwheeling and evrything :) a v pretty picture she made :) ah well. the pool is getting v gross.. and i was wondering whether all the pesky little kids were peeing into the water...

ah well. i'm supposed to be doing physics now.. and i got the hang of motion in a circle. maybe it's cos i finally copied out the lecture notes shuyun lent me for weeks :p haha.. now it's time for me to go borrow the gravitation ones... sigh. ah well. for all that i adore astrophysics, i can't understand the mathematical stuff behind it.. just the major concepts i think... and it's sort of like when you read the books and they go: 'using the formula of xxyyzz, these scientists were able to prove so and so' and i just swallow it whole... sigh. will nv make a good scientist... ah well. i always believe that you should never go into a field where you will prob just remain mediocre and average... i mean. if you're going to do sthg for the rest of your life, you might as well be *good* at it.. right? sigh. that's why i can't make my career choice :( tt's so elitist tho :/

sigh sigh. oh. :) sthg happy :P i was so bored yesterday i painted my nails pomegrenate grenade.. haha :) this maroon-y colour. which according to my aunt looks super bitchy.. haha :) ah well. it's only on my toenails... err wait. like i told lam.. make that it's on my toenails *and* my toes, and my fingers and all around...:) hmmm. strike manicurist off my career list as well :p

yeeeha! :D just came back from johore :p with tons of clothes :) or maybe not tons.. but enough to make me v v happy :) finally got a v nice denim skirt... bleached and all.. and v short.. shall have to relearn how to sit in a skirt just to go ard in it :) yay!!!

aaargh! am v traumatised... have a distended belly!!! hrmph. and my grandma was only just telling me i was becoming anorexic... like yeah! anorexic pple don't get distended bellies, unless they have that malnourishment disease :/ hrmph. what ever am i going to do? sheesh.

anyway on brighter note. am going shopping on sunday! :) heeee :D gee :) am expecting a rash of utterly fun clothes :) and btw. if anyone sees danceable-in three quarter pants that look cool and cargoish. pls tell me :) love ya all! btw. just fell in love with audioslave's like a stone today. ah well. took a couple of tries cos it isn't exactly a fall in love type of song

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aww :) this is *so* sweet... :):):)

i wanna run through the halls of my high school i wanna scream at the top of my lungs :)

haha :D how does one scream at the top of one's lungs? hmmmm. quite a feat that would be... oh. i feel cough-y... i think i caught the cough from the white scary horse at rda... he had such protruding eyes... they were like plums... but he did love carrots all so much :) i love horses! i love the stable smell.. including all the manure... tho i much prefer the stable smell sans manure :) ahhhh :D was so blissful.. cept that since it was the first time i'd ever seen them up close and personal it really was quite intimidating.. they're such quiet animals and it would seem as if they had snuck up on you when it's just that you didn't quite notice them until you were right up next to them.. me and charlene were filling up the water buckets when she suddenly was like whoa! cos this huge ex racehorse was just standing right in front of her :) ahhhhh!!!

lam! you must come and see them.. even if it's just for a couple of days... i swear you fall for them and refuse to leave them (and the rest of us!! :) yeah :D cept maybe the rickety white pony who looks discomfitingly like an old person... hrmmmm. i realised that although i've been in love with horses since those pony books i've never really seen them :) cept in the zoo i think.... ahhh!!! :) *in throes of ecstasy*

anyway. awwwww :) hee... i guess i'm only good for saying stuff like that now.. monosyllabic noises of happiness :)

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ha! jealous yet? ah well. i was thinking. what's with the v ugly writing....

aaargh. am lost. wth is valence bond theory exactly? they keep giving me vague description and what they can do using the valence bond theory.. but help! what does it state??? it is a theory.. and thus *has* to state sthg..doesn't it?

damn the blasted tea. now i'm fully awake at 2 in the morning and with my nose running like a horse. sigh. ah well. my dad just came back with tau sa pia from penang :) boxes and boxes of them! mmmmm :D ah well. at least now i can't complain that there's nothing to eat.

oh. i'm a new convert... nv realised why jane and lam and gang liked john mayer... but haha :) as i said. newly converted. tho i only like a couple of songs :) i love the guitar... ahhh... am always a sucker for guitarred music :) haha :)

here i am. crouched in a dark corner with the powerbook in front of me... discomfortingly warm, unbearably awake when i would rather be sleepy... sigh. this *really* is jostling my internal clock. hate it. hmmm. oh yeah. sadly have to announce that my mom gave the squirt toy to my younger cousins. am v sad... didn't even get to play with it much!!! and it lights up and squirts water :/ sigh. am seriously deprived. grrrr....

anyway. have realised that i'm totally out of touch with books... the only ones i've been reading are re-reads... trashy rereads at that :p which reminds me. is eoin colfer (however you spell it) any good? i remember leafing thru it in borders and thought it was pretty childish... sigh. but. ah well. i could always borrow it from eugene i guess.. not that he would like to lend them to me... being a scary person who insists that i keep his books in utterly pristine condition otherwise i'd have to fund his new harry potter book. sigh. there are so many books that i've been meaning to read but nv got around to.. like frank herbert's dune... like some jane austen... or mark twain or sthg... sigh. but all i've been reading is jennifer roberson.. (which i must say tho, is brilliant for entertainment :) appallingly predictable.. but i love anticipating the oh-so-sweet-tragic love storylines... haha :) damn sucker that i am.

i wanna go shopping! if only just so that i won't have to stare at my cupboard everytime i go out in search for sthg respectable to wear... saw a lovely pair of pink boardshorts at topshop today... but crys says they're too skimpy. sigh. if only i had legs that went on forever :) haha :) it's such a nice phrase isn't it? legs that go on forever :) sounds like sthg out of a trashy novel :p am rambly now but i don't much care :) am *always* rambly... an accursed trait.

ahhh!! i really wanna go to sleep... if only because i know that if i don't i won't be able to stay awake tmr... sigh. anyway. reading jennifer roberson again brings back sweet memories of stolen books from des and furtive reading under the table during math and bio and whatever class it happened to be... and pooling money together just to get the latest books :) ahhh. :):):) such pleasant thoughts. and reminding me of lir :) and how me and lam would talk about what lir we wanted to have :) i would love a panther :) or a hawk... or a wolf.. somehow all this fantasy reading has left me rather well-disposed towards the wolves :) what with julia and the wolves and david eddings and assorted other fantasy writers who have this fascination with them...

anyway. my mom is taking some lifesciences course... for what reason i have no idea considering that she is a chem tchr and in no way bio inclined.. and she was asking about genomes and RNA and stuff... and it appalls me that i do not remember them much!! aaaargh. starting to regret not taking bio in jc... considering that i love bio so much! sigh. maybe not as much as lam. but still a lot. despite hating the fact that evry bio syllabus requires the memorisation of thick dusty textbooks. but i seriously enjoy puzzling out the craziness of asexual and sexual reproduction and knowing how the stomach and intestines work and even memorising the insanely complicated brain processes... sigh. and now i'm stuck with physics.. which utterly baffles me... tho i love the cosmos and our galaxy and the purported big bang. i have no idea why we orbit and not crash into each other and explode in a sublimely gorgeous supernova that would be visible for millions and trillions of lightyears.

i miss the easy camaraderie of 411... where everyone just says whatever they wanna say. during class during break whatever. somehow. it's much more strained in my class now. i mean. i love my class and all... but somehow. it just feels weird. like it was all put together and left there to survive if it would or perish or whatever. it feels sort of traitor-ish to say this, having championed the niceties and the brilliance of my class :) but. i guess we'll survive :) and time will change it all... afterall. 311 kinda sucked for a while didn't it? cos :) all the teachers hated us :p or maybe not hate... but we were always the cavalier dishonourable malfeasants as compared to the mugger 413 :p (no offense :) ah well. haha :) not that blin or ting ever cared much anyway :)

oh well. i miss spouting r&j for whatever reason... the whole 'o she doth teach the torches to burn bright' and all that :) tho i must say. i don't particularly miss the friar... :) hated his lines.

wow. amazing! i actually got into blogger for the first time in days... ah well. i had tons to blog about yesterday.. but it has lost its immediacy so effectively, now i have nothing to say. cept. sigh. i hate this business of farewells. it bothers me.

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