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damn the blasted tea. now i'm fully awake at 2 in the morning and with my nose running like a horse. sigh. ah well. my dad just came back with tau sa pia from penang :) boxes and boxes of them! mmmmm :D ah well. at least now i can't complain that there's nothing to eat.

oh. i'm a new convert... nv realised why jane and lam and gang liked john mayer... but haha :) as i said. newly converted. tho i only like a couple of songs :) i love the guitar... ahhh... am always a sucker for guitarred music :) haha :)

here i am. crouched in a dark corner with the powerbook in front of me... discomfortingly warm, unbearably awake when i would rather be sleepy... sigh. this *really* is jostling my internal clock. hate it. hmmm. oh yeah. sadly have to announce that my mom gave the squirt toy to my younger cousins. am v sad... didn't even get to play with it much!!! and it lights up and squirts water :/ sigh. am seriously deprived. grrrr....

anyway. have realised that i'm totally out of touch with books... the only ones i've been reading are re-reads... trashy rereads at that :p which reminds me. is eoin colfer (however you spell it) any good? i remember leafing thru it in borders and thought it was pretty childish... sigh. but. ah well. i could always borrow it from eugene i guess.. not that he would like to lend them to me... being a scary person who insists that i keep his books in utterly pristine condition otherwise i'd have to fund his new harry potter book. sigh. there are so many books that i've been meaning to read but nv got around to.. like frank herbert's dune... like some jane austen... or mark twain or sthg... sigh. but all i've been reading is jennifer roberson.. (which i must say tho, is brilliant for entertainment :) appallingly predictable.. but i love anticipating the oh-so-sweet-tragic love storylines... haha :) damn sucker that i am.

i wanna go shopping! if only just so that i won't have to stare at my cupboard everytime i go out in search for sthg respectable to wear... saw a lovely pair of pink boardshorts at topshop today... but crys says they're too skimpy. sigh. if only i had legs that went on forever :) haha :) it's such a nice phrase isn't it? legs that go on forever :) sounds like sthg out of a trashy novel :p am rambly now but i don't much care :) am *always* rambly... an accursed trait.

ahhh!! i really wanna go to sleep... if only because i know that if i don't i won't be able to stay awake tmr... sigh. anyway. reading jennifer roberson again brings back sweet memories of stolen books from des and furtive reading under the table during math and bio and whatever class it happened to be... and pooling money together just to get the latest books :) ahhh. :):):) such pleasant thoughts. and reminding me of lir :) and how me and lam would talk about what lir we wanted to have :) i would love a panther :) or a hawk... or a wolf.. somehow all this fantasy reading has left me rather well-disposed towards the wolves :) what with julia and the wolves and david eddings and assorted other fantasy writers who have this fascination with them...

anyway. my mom is taking some lifesciences course... for what reason i have no idea considering that she is a chem tchr and in no way bio inclined.. and she was asking about genomes and RNA and stuff... and it appalls me that i do not remember them much!! aaaargh. starting to regret not taking bio in jc... considering that i love bio so much! sigh. maybe not as much as lam. but still a lot. despite hating the fact that evry bio syllabus requires the memorisation of thick dusty textbooks. but i seriously enjoy puzzling out the craziness of asexual and sexual reproduction and knowing how the stomach and intestines work and even memorising the insanely complicated brain processes... sigh. and now i'm stuck with physics.. which utterly baffles me... tho i love the cosmos and our galaxy and the purported big bang. i have no idea why we orbit and not crash into each other and explode in a sublimely gorgeous supernova that would be visible for millions and trillions of lightyears.

i miss the easy camaraderie of 411... where everyone just says whatever they wanna say. during class during break whatever. somehow. it's much more strained in my class now. i mean. i love my class and all... but somehow. it just feels weird. like it was all put together and left there to survive if it would or perish or whatever. it feels sort of traitor-ish to say this, having championed the niceties and the brilliance of my class :) but. i guess we'll survive :) and time will change it all... afterall. 311 kinda sucked for a while didn't it? cos :) all the teachers hated us :p or maybe not hate... but we were always the cavalier dishonourable malfeasants as compared to the mugger 413 :p (no offense :) ah well. haha :) not that blin or ting ever cared much anyway :)

oh well. i miss spouting r&j for whatever reason... the whole 'o she doth teach the torches to burn bright' and all that :) tho i must say. i don't particularly miss the friar... :) hated his lines.